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It has been far too long since my last post, and I wanted to be sure that all of you who might be wondering “Where in the World is Linda,” received an update. Since our last “report,” we’ve encountered many “twisters,” but many rainbows have also abounded. Rainbows come in many forms, and, as my dear friend, Juli, recently reminded me, we all have to look for rainbows in unusual places.

Some of the very BEST rainbows seemed to be everywhere just before I arrived at home and for days and days afterward. I wish there was an easier way to post pictures on this site, but I will, in the near future, post a photo share site where everyone can, if they wish, see some of these beautiful rainbows as well as other “happenings.”

No one ever told me that the Yellow Brick Road was so terribly bumpy and that the Wicked Witch of the West (hereinafter “WWW”) would be so difficult to overcome. Nonetheless, we are confident that, one way or another, we will destroy this evil force.

Alas, although we thought that the WWW was finally extricated with the surgery, we apparently may have underestimated her powers, and it now appears that before she died, she left some of her wretched wrath within me. So…. Once again, I find myself back to repeating the Witches Chant…Double, double, toil and trouble:

Double, double toil and trouble;
Fire burn and caldron bubble.
Fillet of a fenny snake,
In the caldron boil and bake;
Eye of newt and toe of frog,
Wool of bat and tongue of dog,
Adder's fork and blind-worm's sting,
Lizard's leg and howlet's wing,
For a charm of powerful trouble,
Like a hell-broth boil and bubble.

Double, double toil and trouble;
Fire burn and caldron bubble.
Cool it with a baboon's blood,
Then the charm is firm and good.

It worked quite well the last time around but apparently not good enough. So….I solicited the help of my faithful friend, the Scarecrow, who, as you will recall, on more than one occasion, needed to stuff himself back together, pick himself up, brush himself off and start all over again. And that’s where I am. I’m back on chemo (a different “brew” this time) and I WILL NOT let the WWW win!

The Scarecrow also had a brilliant idea (no wonder since we now know that all along he had quite a brain). First, collect any and all of the spells and curses (or ANYTHING else that might be used on the WWW). This brought me instantly to think of Harry Potter and the myriad of spells and curses that all of those wonderful little wizards had at their beck and call. The one curse that immediately came to mind was “Avada Kedavra,” the killing curse that causes instant painless death to whomever the curse hits (in this case, the WWW)!! I’ve been practicing and practicing it repeatedly, but since I’m no Wizard and since I never had the advantage of studying at Hogwarts (maybe my W[izard]SAT scores were not high enough), nor did I have any mentoring from Dumbledor, I’m not sure I have all of the powers I need. Of course, I also don’t have one of those handy and powerful little black wands that apparently are needed to effectuate the curses (perhaps that’s my downfall). Nonetheless, at least some of this appears to be working, since at least we’ve seen a considerable drop in the tumor marker numbers. “Avada Kedavra!”

Next, with the help of the ever courageous Lion, I thought that I would start to gather a list of any and all courageous heroes or heroines (real or fictitious) who I might call upon to assist in this battle (besides.... I think that some of my friends in and around OZ are getting a tad weary). Some that immediately come to mind include Wonder Woman, Superman and Batman… but those are obvious ones who have saved the day on many occasions, so I more than welcome any suggestions from all of you who may recall other heroes/heroines and/or special chants/spells that I can add to my list for ready reference when I need a boost (or a good laugh).

So, you might ask, where is Linda today? Well, I thought that since I have a hole in my bucket [list], why not start to plug it up! High, high on the list for quite some time has been a trip to the Galapagos where one can go back in time and see all sorts of interesting creatures that don't exist anywhere else in the world! And that is exactly where we're headed, thanks to Joan of Sophisticated Travelers who literally put this trip together just about a week ago and within 24 hours. Talk about magic... she is wonderful!  

We arrived in Quito, Ecuador yesterday where we will spend a few days and then on to a 7-day cruise to explore the Galapagos islands. Who knows… maybe I’ll find some interesting creatures to add to the Witches’ brew! Of course, it’s absolutely prohibited to take even a rock off any of the islands, but I’m infinitely hopeful that one or more of these strange and beautiful critters might whisper a magic chant in my ear!

We’re very excited that we’re able to cross this one off the bucket list, and we’re ever hopeful that there will be many others. We’re even considering a 4th trip to Africa this coming Spring as well as another visit to Lebanon (perhaps via Barcelona).

As always, the REAL magic comes from everyone in my life who constantly adds to my strength and provides the encouragement and support to help me through this journey. You will never, ever know how much all of your love and friendship means to me and always will. The cards, e-mails, phone calls, and every other expression of love are all “rainbows” in my life that are incomparable and precious moments that I savor each and every day.

Until next time, I’ll be living one of my dreams…. I hope that you will, too…no matter how big or how small.