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Posted 2018-10-05T03:45:36Z

the week after

 Hey guys.  Well  that sucked lol. I wasn't really sure what to expect when they said chemo. It was kinda what I expected and not at the same time. I was given it through IV ,  which took 4 hours.  Paul and I made a date of it and had some long over due catch up time on some shows we like to watch.It actually was really fun.  We got coffee and laughed about it all.  I met an older man who sat across from me.  He has been fighting cancer for years.  He literally is best friends with all the nurses. He  has tried every type of chemo, they said this is his last shot at it .  I ask you to pray for him as they gave him until the holidays. Anyway despite his terribly sad story he was in great spirits and was a nice companion for the day. My nurse was Joe. He was so full of information it was crazy, He helped me really understand why I was doing what I was doing. He was such a gentle man. So that was the day of chemo.

  Terrified we went home with a huge list of side effects, from sores in the mouth to constipation and we were more than freaked out to anticipate what was coming my way.  Day 1 wasn't so bad just fatigue. day 2,3,4 Fatigue, hot flashes, nausea, body irritation, stomach ache. really feels like the flu.  Day 5 and 6 started looking up. less fatigue, was able to get out of bed and move around .  And now I am back to it!

  It is crazy really you hear about cancer and all the treatments that follow your whole life but It is so different going through it.  I can certainly say I am glad round 1 is over and only 3 more to go!! The next date is  Wed. Oct.17. 8:00am.  If any one wants to visit during give me a text and I can let you know times.

  It feels crazy to have a week like I did and then go into this week of total and utter thanksgiving.  Im sure that is why though, had I not had such a bad last week I would not cherish all things. And that sounds cheesy but I mean it.  from beautiful music, to good food to the smiles on may kids faces to fresh air to love.  This is life.  While I had a pretty good grip on what I thought most precious before cancer I can't help but feel like it has all been amplified by 100. I can see God in all that I do and all that is, what an incredible blessing to take part in such design.. I know that I will be sick for quite a bit longer but in some small way my soul desires it, if only it means I can see life this way the week after.  Blessed, Bes


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Comments (6)

  • Linda Rachetto
    Linda Rachetto

    So glad to hear from you! Praise God, 1 down. Praying for you and your family, and the others being treated. Have you heard the son Even If, by Mercy Me.

    one year ago · Reply
  • Dawnell Murphy West
    Dawnell Murphy West

    You are always in our thoughts and I wish there weren’t so many miles between us. You have a beautiful soul and I know you will come through this and make us all more greatful by the lessons you’re sharing. Muah!

    one year ago · Reply
  • Laura Anthony
    Laura Anthony

    You have an amazing attitude! Glad round 1 is done and you’re moving on 😊 Love and hugs, Laura

    one year ago · Reply
  • Jan Conner
    Jan Conner

    Praying for you and the man you met joe too because without people like him we would be less informed and less cared for Bessie May God bless you and your family and remember you are not walking this journey alone. Blessings Jan Conner

    one year ago · Reply
  • Karen

    Bessie, I love your strength and perspective. You are right, we have all heard of and known people we love going thru these horrible, miracle treatments. We’ve seen the effects. But I can’t imagine what it’s like to personally go thru this, only you do. But I’ll be counting down the treatments with you. 3 more. You have your strength and the strength of your family and friends, and I believe you will come out on top. Thinking of you often. Karen

    one year ago · Reply
  • Kathy Passig
    Kathy Passig

    Thinking of you and hoping you are feeling well. I know you have another session with chemo this week. I pray that you stay strong and get through it without too much downtime. You have the best outlook with family and friends who care so much. We are with you in this. Much love. 💕

    one year ago · Reply