For just once I hope to give some good news here. It won't be today however. I thought maybe since I never complain I would get some stuff off my chest first so here goes...
Why does cancer have to hurt? Why can't my triple negative breast cancer leave me alone? My body is forever changed and not in a pretty way. My arm still hurts and maybe one day it won't. And why in the hell did the stupid COVID-19 have to hit now? Gary can't even accompany me to my appointments for support so I go alone everyday to radiation appointments as well as CT scans, etc. Oh and PostHope is shutting down 6/1/2020 :(
Enough with the negative. I can only do it for a minute lol. So on with the update...Saturday I had CT scans that show my cancer is still on the move and mostly in my lymph nodes. I have two new areas of concern along with something on the outside of my right lung. Nothing in my major organs thank you Jesus. My doctors are talking about a PET scan to better show what is actually cancer. I am on the agenda for tumor board on Wednesday when all of my doctors put their heads together to come up with a plan for me. I know my oncologist is looking into trials for immunotherapy which may be the next treatment after radiation. I have read good things about immunotherapy and there has been success with this treatment. I pray they find me the right trial and I get in. For now I will continue with radiation and complete this treatment as it is showing some positive results. I am on week four of six so over half way there with skin holding up very well. I'm told I will burn and likely blister by the time we're done, but so far I'm just now getting red and no pain. I have a lot of fight left in me so this cancer better just look out.
We continue to follow stay at home guidelines and though I go out every day M-F I only go to treatment then back home. I need my radiation team to stay healthy as well as myself so I can continue this treatment. I am so grateful for these dedicated, caring and professional people. They don't get to work from home and come to work everyday to treat my cancer. I pray for them too.
I know I sound like a broken record but I have to say it...I am forever grateful for my amazing husband, children, family, my dog, my army of friends and my medical team who keep me lifted up and positive. I couldn't do this without you all! I am still finding those silver linings every day and I know that His plan is mine and I will embrace it. I will pray for no fear, lots of faith and my miracle. I will also pray that all of us stay healthy and this Coronavirus is out of here soon. You all stay strong and I will too. I hope to see you all in the near future. Maybe we won't be able to hug but seeing your faces would be a plus.