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Posted 2018-12-29T02:12:00Z

The saying, "God won't give you more than you can handle"

Our smiley girlMany have reminded me that "God won't give you more than you can handle". It has been a statement that hasn't resonated or made me feel any better about what we are going through as a family. Just when I began wondering "How much more before we can't anymore", we were given relief. I now understand that saying. It stood out to me today. 

We had a day filled with visitors this afternoon and a more content and happy Ella babes. Thank you Nate, Charlize, Zach & Krista, Ryan & Teresa for coming today. You all truly brightened our day, we so appreciate when visitors come to help us pass the time away! 

We also got the wonderful news that being Ellas electrolyte, phosphate, and calcium levels have been stable for the last couple days… that we were okayed to move out of the ICU and back into the Infant Care Center. So as I write this evening, we are getting comfortable in this new room. Fun Fact: We have moved 7 times since being admitted two weeks ago… Oofta you wouldn't believe the stuff you accumulate while living in a hospital. We are becoming masters at packing up and moving in an instant!! We are hoping we will stay put in this room until we go home.

Ellas white blood cell count dropped to 17,000 from 30,000 / her red blood cell count went up to 11.2 from 6.7 after the blood transfusion / they haven't had to replace electrolytes for the last 24 hours / her calcium level went up / and her biopsy results came back NORMAL!!!! All wonderful news!! She was cleared to take 10mls of my breastmilk now by bottle twice a day and slow but sure they will transition from Elecare back to breastmilk through her feeding tube. 

Wow, so many feelings. We have our high highs and low lows around here, but try to find balance in it all and look for the silver lining in everything. I try remember not to get too excited about the positive news because things can change so quickly, but God is healing our sweet girl. What a joy to hear things are looking up and continually progressing. 

We received a gift in the mail and in it was a dress hand sewn by my dear friend… in the card it read: "I know this dress may be too cold and a little oversized right now but with every stitch I sewed, I prayed you'll grow". Oh the tears fell, and the fragile reality of life was my imagination. Prayer is our refuge, God hears our prayers… Grow sweet Ella, Grow. Mama can't wait to see you healthy and well again. 

I say this often, but when you go through different trials in life and people reach out and help in whatever way they can… it changes you and there are really no words to express the gratitude in my heart for all the love we have received. Life can change in the blink of an eye, and what a blessing it is to have the support of friends and family near and far during times like these. Thanks again to everyone, our days are better because of you! 

Hymn # 351:

1. Thank you, Lord, for all your blessings; / thanks for joy and thanks for tears; / you are always walking with us; / you know all our hopes and fears. 

2. Thank you for our homes and families; / thanks for all who share our lives; / through our elders, sisters, brothers, / many blessings you provide. 

3. Thank you for our friends and escorts; / hand in hand we journey home. / in the bonds of peace and freedom, / mutual joy and love we own.

4. Thank you, Lord, for vineyard workers / and the living seed they sow; / when you bless the work of sowing, / fruits of faith and goodness grow. 

5. Thank you for the festive moments / when we pause from daily care / to give thanks and sing of heaven / and the rest awaiting there. 

6. Thank you that you hear your children / pleading: Father, carry us / to the heav'nly celebration / in eternal blessedness.



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Comments (6)

  • Lisa Johnson
    Lisa Johnson

    Do many similar thoughts and feelings you wrote. Most of all, thanks to God for showing His love, which is so powerful, it's beyond words. He will carry you, comfort and hold you in times of weariness, and give times of restoration. That note and dress is the best. Hope. Hold that close! God's peace! Lisa Johnson (Allan too)

    one year ago · Reply
    • Megan Haataja
      Megan Haataja

      These trials can teach us... and oh how true, we are truly blessed. Grateful for you and your insight too, Lisa! ❤️ Remembering you always here ❤️ Gods peace, give Carter a squeeze from us!!

      one year ago · Reply
  • Barbara Huhta
    Barbara Huhta


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  • Kate Moll
    Kate Moll

    So good to read this post! Glad for good news💕 prayers and remembering you all as always! Thanks for sharing here! It’s giving me good perspective in these last weeks of pregnancy. You’ve been so open about the hard feelings, and it gives good food for thought and soul. Your last post where you wrote about how our trials may be different from our neighbors. So true, and a good reminder, I’ll take my trials, along with the many blessings that accompany them. Praying for more good news for little Ella, and that God continues to give you and Ross strength and carries you when you have none ❤️❤️

    one year ago · Reply
  • Janelle Huhta
    Janelle Huhta

    Her smiling face says it all! Good to hear of these improvements for Ella and that you have found moments of joy, comfort, thankfulness in spite of the worries, and difficulties of hospital life. May the new year bring continual improvement and growth! God's Peace, Janelle and Ben

    one year ago · Reply
  • Rachel Byman
    Rachel Byman

    I have appreciated reading your posts. Thank you for sharing! It is clear that God is with you there and in your hearts 💞 Remembering you with love God's Peace, Rachel (&Nolan) Byman

    one year ago · Reply