We are at the point where we are just waiting for the call. We have completed all of our classes, paperwork, home inspection, and as much of our home study as we have a part in. Once our case worker calls for us to sign off on our home study we will be officially done with everything pre-placement. Our nursery is set up with the thought of how it can be added to if we are offered and accept 2 kiddos. I love how it has come together and my arms are ever so ready to hold the little person God has plans to invite into our lives.
Waiting is a hard task for me. I’ve never been the most patient person, especially when it comes to something I want so deeply and have so little control over. This journey has been full of choices for us; domestic adoption or foster to adopt, county or FFA, which FFA, what kind of criteria can we handle, how quickly can we accomplish these tasks, and so on. Now we are at the point where our choices dimenish and we wait to be the choice for the caller. We have a say in what we accept but we have to wait to be picked first. We know that there is very little in foster care that we will really have a huge voice in and we will be waiting a lot on decisions made by others, biological family, courts, social workers, even the kids, but waiting with empty arms feels so much harder this side of things. I have been spending time focusing on bible reading and devotionals geared towards waiting on God’s timing and putting all of my heart into the family we have. I know God is good and Him timing is great and this frustration over waiting will feel like silly in hindsight.
“I would have lost heart, unless I had believed That I would see the goodness of the LORD In the land of the living. Wait on the LORD; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD!”