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Posted 2019-12-27T16:58:02Z

A Season of Deep Thoughts

Not much new has been going on around here since my last post. I've had what seems to be a monthly visit to the ER just to stay hours, be run through lots of tests and find nothing new.

My neuropathy is unchanged but I am so thankful I can go about my day without intense pain in my fingers. Now I would describe the feeling like tingly without much feeling.

When I'm alone my thoughts are on how thankful I am to be home with my family this Christmas season. Every day all day I hold back emotions thinking of my potential donor family. If I am so blessed as to receive a donor heart this coming year then that means my donor is spending their last holiday season with their family (tears). I pray for my donor family daily. I pray for perfect timing for a heart along with my patience while waiting. I'm tired. Really tired.
In 4 hours I will be heading to a Providence clinic in Portland for Infusion #3. I won't be finding anything out about my antibodies until early March. I'm like a child. I want to know now.

Anyway, that's the scoop. If you have questions about this whole process I'm an open book. Ask away and I'll do my best to answer or find an answer from my transplant team.
Friends! Hug your family often. Don't forget to say I love you. Inspire, encourage and compliment your children, friends and family members more often than you point out their failures.
I apologize this post is fully lacking in all areas of sarcasm and humor. My head is in another place this morning ..... a potential donor and their family and friends ......thankful I'm here at home this season ..... thankful for the tried and true few that are a constant in my daily life. You know who you are. I couldn't do this without you.

Well, I just had to turn off my alarm. I gotta go! I need a couple hours to get ready these days. Tonight I get to celebrate my 49th birthday (a couple days early). It's going to be a full day but I'm looking forward to seeing a handful of my friends, my parents and my brother tonight.

God bless,
Tracy

No eye has seen no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.
1 Corithians 2:9b

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