Hard lessons....

It is so important to express ones feelings.  I have not shared for so long on this site.  So many changes, challenges & a lot of self-growth.  Everything happens for a reason & it's hard to see it sometimes, as we go through tough times.

I had to recently evict my flat-mate due to his use of alcohol & drugs.  My home is my haven & I can't be at peace living with an active addict.

This experience brought up a lot of 'remember whens'-an AA saying.  Times that I drank & so much loneliness, fear & sadness I was trying to run from (while drinking) that came at me hard while living with the active addict.

I hope I'm making sense.  This experience helped me to heal & to understand why friends & family could not be around me as I was drinking myself to death.

I pray the best for him & all addicts (me being one too).  We can't change anyone, however, I have the right to live with out fear & anxiety, as do we all.

I have been alcohol-free for over 10 years, all by the grace of God!  

There is always Hope!  Healing& recovery is the choice I have made-it takes time & with the grace of God, it's happening.

You Are Worth So Much!

God Bless You

J Christian S