GO, GO-NO!

Rush, rush, hurry, hurry....this goes through my mind most mornings.  I then pray & check-in w/ self (I say, to myself-why do I need to rush or hurry?)  As I pray, I become grounded & I am so grateful that I can-give it to God.

I was raised with the mentality that if one is not busy being productive, then one has no worth.  Sure, one needs to work, unless you are wealthy & daily needs require attending, however, I need down time, play time too.

Yes, in the past I have worked as much as I could-2 full-time jobs, or working & volunteering or working & going to school full-time But, I always ended up sick-so sick I could not work at all.

This was a pattern I repeated for far too long & even though I have been on the recovery & healing journey for most of my life-that became work too. Please don't get me wrong, recovery is work & worth it But again, there needs to be balance.  (even during my drinking career, I was receiving art therapy & near the end of it (the drinking) a support group).

So for the last year & a half, my body has said STOP!!!  I (my body) will let you do the bare minumin until you learn to be gentle, kind & loving to me.  My brain is still trying to push the go, go. go & my body just says NO!

There is always Hope!  Healing& recovery is the choice I have made-it takes time & with the grace of God, it's happening.

You Are Worth So Much!

God Bless You

J Christian S