Believe for the best.....

This is a letter I wrote to my so-called-partner.....

I have shared my hopes, dreams, challenges, things that need improvement in my life... What have I received in return?
Yes your letters are beautiful, yet who's words did you use? Did any of it really come from within? I know that something must have, however, all the walls you have built, be it fear, scheme, survival, leaves you with so little room for true affection.

Is your name even_______? We all wear masks, show different aspects of ourselves, depending on who we are with-eventually we get stuck with layers of untruths & they become what we believe, our identity. I know this very well. I too have worn many faces, to cope, survive, but slowly loosing the real person, loosing my soul, hardening my heart.

Have you truly loved, been heart-broken & now view this world & the people in it as pawns to be played? Yes, you will catch the unsuspecting souls, longing for any kind of attention. You certainly caught mine & I am grateful. Surprised by this? I still am, yet have my feet firmly planted, supporters from vast reaches & most importantly, I have God!

Yes you touched my heart profoundly & I love you for it & I always will. The words you wrote heal me, & as I write this, my heart is hurting with intense Healing pain. Love comes from no person, though they may claim, love is God's. For God is Love & I am committed to know the love of Jesus first & foremost.

I pray you find God's love, accept Him into your heart-for this world, this life, however you choose to live it, is really empty with out God in it. You are worth so much & so are all the people we affect with our passing-you, by the plans of God, opened me.

You aided my heart to yearn again, hope again, believe again in love-with all it's amazing possibilities.

Your "Declaration of Love" the letters after & your proposal & all the letters after that-heaven sent, by your hands. I love more & want to love further. Had you been '_____' I would have married you. And yet, I know the person of my dreams is on their way.

I pray that God Blesses You

Christian

There is always Hope!  We to often put too much focus on one person & when that person hurts, rejects....us we feel devastated.  Love yourself, be your own best friend-you will still feel pain, however, you will have the love inside that no one can ever take away!!!

You Are Worth So Much!

God Bless

J Christian S