More substance...

I don't

always write

details

-my life

experiences...

I do

want people

to relate

-to have

understanding

-or maybe

see things

differently...

I grew

up in

-fear

And I

still push

myself

-face fears

& try

to live

an abundant

life...

I know

a lot

of it

is perception

-of people

places &

things...

I do

not feel

like I

belong

-I know

I have

said this

before...

Going to

AA meetings

-reaching out

for help

& support

-all of

this is

making a

shift...

I am

slowly getting

comfortable

-with newness

-the unknown

-people I

do not

know well...

When I

was younger

-I would

push

-to be

your friend

-to be

noticed

-to feel

like I

belonged...

Not having

alcohol &

other addictions

(not saying

I still

don't)

-make me

numb...

I became

overwhelmed with

-guilt

-shame

-fear...

All due

to how

I hurt

others

-while only

caring about

my next

fix

-drink...

There is always Hope!  I may not be where I want to be, I thank God, I am not where I used to be.  Please give yourself permission to forgive yourself of things you have done wrong, people you have hurt-it really allows healing in!

You Are Worth So Much!

God Bless

J Christian S