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Posted 2018-07-24T17:26:53Z

Shattered

As much as I have prepared for this day, I find myself stunned and at a loss for adequate words. My heart has been completely shattered as I witnessed my love, my husband, my best friend, and father of my children take his last breaths last night.

My sorrow is heavy and crushing. But my gratitude for his love is endless. I am proud of the man he was, and I am proud to have been his wife for the last 22 years. I am even proud to now be his widow, even though the title is foreign to me and does not feel right. I will love him forever, and I know he will always be with me through the many memories we made together and through our three wonderful boys.

Neal is now free of his pain and suffering … and ours has begun. Please keep Ben, Jeremy and Matthew in your hearts as they adjust to a new life without their beloved dad.

Funeral Service details may be found here:

https://memorials.goldmanfc.com/Neal-Fox/3572683/service-details.php

Shiva calling hours will be posted soon.

My most heartfelt thanks to all of you for sustaining us with your support and love over the past 3 ½ years. It has meant so much to us.

With love,

Michelle

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Comments (15)

  • Michelle Doherty
    Michelle Doherty

    Words can not Express our heartfelt sympathy for you and your Boys. Sending Love, strength and hugs...The Doherty Family

    one year ago · Reply
  • Anne Donahue-Boddy
    Anne Donahue-Boddy

    We don't have any words to ease this pain. Please know that your family is in our thoughts and prayers. The Boddy family.

    one year ago · Reply
  • Kim Mager
    Kim Mager

    I am so sorry Michelle. You and Neal have been so strong and resilient throughout this entire horribly hellish ordeal. My heart is with you and the boys. May Neal's memory be for a blessing. -- Kim

    one year ago · Reply
  • Lori Gordon
    Lori Gordon

    Michelle, Ben, Jeremy & Marty, Words cannot express how sorry I am to hear about Neal (your Dad.). He fought such a long and courageous battle with strength, dignity and his great sense of humor. He loved you all so much which is evident by the way he lived his life especially during the past 3.5 years. He clearly wanted to be with all of you as long as possible. May his memory be for a blessing. Lori Gordon Stefanie & Andrew Sack

    one year ago · Reply
  • Mindy Holmes
    Mindy Holmes

    Condolences. Hugs. Love. May his memory be a blessing forever.

    one year ago · Reply
  • Paula Berger
    Paula Berger

    There is nothing to say. My heart goes out to all of you. You are an amazing pillar of strength. Much love.

    one year ago · Reply
  • Carol Reis
    Carol Reis

    Michelle, Words cannot express the heartache that I feel for you and your sons right now. Thank you for sharing Neal's story and what a wonderful man, husband, father, brother, son, and warrior that your husband was. He gave this horrific disease a valiant and brave fight and gave it one heck of a fight, but is now enjoying his heavenly reward but, sadly, leaves many loved ones behind to grieve his tremendous loss. You will be in my thoughts and prayers in the difficult days ahead!!

    one year ago · Reply
  • Lilia
    Lilia

    We are so sorry Michelle. My heart breaks for all of you. We are keeping you all in our thoughts and prayers, always. The Maselli Family

    one year ago · Reply
  • Cynthia
    Cynthia

    I'm sorry to hear of your great loss, Michelle. May the peace of God fill your heart and mind at this time of sorrow and loss. You and your children are in my prayers.

    one year ago · Reply
  • Melanie Armstrong
    Melanie Armstrong

    Jeremy and family, We were part of the HITWGCamp Fandango last Fall. We loved hanging out with your father as much as the kids loved hanging with you. He was an inspiration and so much fun despite what he was going through. He was feeling good that weekend and very much in the moment. He loved being a part of your big show experience. I’m very sorry for your loss. Sending lots of hugs, The Connor Armstrong family

    one year ago · Reply
  • Sandy bornstein
    Sandy bornstein

    Our condolences go out to all of you. Neal really was a hero and you a heroine. He persevered for 3 1/2 years with the last three of them doing things and going places while he was still able to enjoy himself and he got to see his sons enter their teen years and Ben off to College. I truly believe that because of all the love of his family and friends it gave him the strength to beat the odds that were originally given to him. Michelle, you have been an amazing wife through all of this and we felt your immense love and strength, anger, and frustration with this beast that took over your lives. You were both given a gift of a lifetime when you found each other - soulmates in life and beyond! May the healing for all of you begin. Big hugs!

    one year ago · Reply
  • Lisa Fitzpatrick
    Lisa Fitzpatrick

    Words can't express how sorry I am for you and the boys. It is good that he isn't in pain anymore, but I'm so sorry for the pain you must all be in. Love you all <3

    one year ago · Reply
  • Carolyn Cozzens
    Carolyn Cozzens

    I'm so sorry Michelle... Rest in Peace Neal.. My deepest condolences to you and the boys... Hugs and love to all of you... If I can help in any way, please let me know..

    one year ago · Reply
  • Marilyn Agress
    Marilyn Agress

    I wish you and your children peace and strength in the days ahead. You and Neal had a love most don't get to experience. Always keep that in your heart! From, Marilyn (previous Randolph neighbor to Neal)

    one year ago · Reply
  • Shari St.Amand
    Shari St.Amand

    Our hearts are with all of you...we are so sorry for your insurmountable loss. We had the honor of meeting Neal at THITWGC Gala last September and he left a lasting imprint in our hearts. He showed us all that love wins. He knew how lucky he was to have the time he had with his family...he will be with you always. Sending you love, strength and peace today and always. Love, The St.Amand Family

    one year ago · Reply