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Posted 2016-05-24T14:09:53Z

new vocabulary

Two words I have dreaded using both pop in to today’s vocabulary: pain and Hospice. For several days Marian has been able to keep pain at bay with the use of Tylenol, but today the discomfort grew considerably more ominous. (Marian prefers the word ‘discomfort’, but then, she has a high pain threshold) Today I gave her an oxycodone which immediately sent the pain packing.

 Last night the weakness and dizzieness combined to make for a big fall at 4:30am. And in the process of picking her up I wrenched my back. Today I’ve been wearing the brace! To make a long story short, the rather sudden appearance and worsening of neurological symptoms led to putting Marian in the Hospice unit here at Shell Point. The inability to walk on her own and my inability to lend much strength made this a prudent move . If the weakness etc can be dealt with then expect Marian to return home in a few days for her vital signs are strong.

Marian and I were met with amazing tenderness and understanding as we checked in to the unit. There are two beds so I will be spending the nights there as well.. The sense of relief I have in knowing that Marian will be safe tonight is palpable! I suppose this is what we paid for when we came to Shell Point 12 years ago, never expecting we would need it, of course. So we are deeply grateful to our caregivers, and to God who all along has been preparing a ‘safe house’ in heaven for Marian, one of His choice children.

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Comments (12)

  • Doloris B Biddulph
    Doloris B Biddulph

    Jim, please know that you continue to be in and on my heart with much love and prayer for both of you. Doloris B

    4 years ago · Reply
  • Grace E. Nelson
    Grace E. Nelson

    I read your entry this morning and again I pray for strength and courage. So glad for Hospice. I had a long experience with them when I cared for my nephew. It was after a fall that he was admited to the Hospice facility. So glad you can be there during the night. Grace

    4 years ago · Reply
  • Grace E. Nelson
    Grace E. Nelson

    Praise the Lord for Hospice, such a blessing. Know my prayers are often with you both. Grace

    4 years ago · Reply
  • Janet Howard
    Janet Howard

    How wonderful to be at Marian's side at night, knowing that others are giving the physical care she needs and doing it so well. It frees you to give the emotional and spiritual care that only a spouse can give. And the rooms have such beautiful views. Breathe deeply of God's grace. He cares for you both and provides all you need at critical times like these. Happy to catch a glimpse of you both in the lobby yesterday. Dave and I pray daily for you both and send you our love.

    4 years ago · Reply
  • Sheron White
    Sheron White

    Thank you, again, for the update, Jim! I can understand back pain and a spouse having to put forth great effort to help me get to a healthcare physician for safety and care. Started therapy this week for recurring lapses of that. I am reading your Day 145, "One Year With Jesus", Mark 5:36. Makes me appreciate the care and understanding of the Hospice workers you mentioned there at Shell Point, who share our believe in the "safe haven" Jesus is preparing for Marion, and someday us. Praise Him for being our Wisdom and Vision as we trust Him with our belief and sometimes unbelief. Our Savior, Healer, Sanctifier and Soon Coming King! What blessings bestowed upon us in so many ways and times. We love you and Marion, continuing to praise God for and pray for you. Archie and Sheron White

    4 years ago · Reply
  • William Payne
    William Payne

    We share with you, Marian and Jim, our love ones in Christ, the comforting words of the Psalmist, " Each day He carries us in his arms". And so today and every day with you we rest! We love you! Bill and Phyllis

    4 years ago · Reply
  • Sara Fricke
    Sara Fricke

    We were so saddened to learn of worsening symptoms. Vocabulary fails as we attempt to express our love and concern for both of you. But we want you to know of our prayers for you. For the God of all grace to pour out His grace in abundance during this challenging, difficult time. How grateful we are that you are receiving such compassionate and excellent care. For you, Marian, we are praying for relief of symptoms. For you, Jim, just a word of advice from this old retired orthopod friend. Give time for your back symptoms to resolve as you spend your days and nights loving and caring for Marian.

    4 years ago · Reply
  • Mary Ann Maguire
    Mary Ann Maguire

    Upon reading your post I took a deep breath. Thank you for providing this update and thinking of us all. May God bless you today, perhaps with a moment of beauty from your window , or a psalm that touches your souls, or an improvement in your conditions. With love and concern, Mary Ann

    4 years ago · Reply
  • Philip Skellie
    Philip Skellie

    We thank God for your courage in allowing us to walk this journey with you. Your example lights a path we will all trod. Where is God in the dark? Beside us. "I lift up my eyes to you, to you whose throne is in heaven.....till he shows us mercy." Ps.123

    4 years ago · Reply
  • Grayce Gore
    Grayce Gore

    Love you both and will continue to pray.

    4 years ago · Reply
  • Donna Duss
    Donna Duss

    Good morning, dear friends. As I pray for you both, this promise comes to mind. May the steadfast love of the Lord be your portion today and in all the days to come. It was a joy to be with you both last week. Lamentations 3:22-23 (ESV) 22 The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; 23 they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.

    4 years ago · Reply
  • Sarah Nadal
    Sarah Nadal

    My heart goes out to you during this difficult time - especially when I reflect on the profound impact you both have had in shaping my childhood belief, relationship, and foundation in the Lord. Today, your faith and reliance on the Counselor is a strong testimony. I will continue to pray for you both, and appreciate the updates through this site. Much love and many prayers, Sarah (Patten) Nadal

    4 years ago · Reply