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Posted 2018-09-21T05:21:38Z

One month in...

So it's been just over a month since transplant, and my Mom and I have settled into our apartment in the Outer Sunset neighborhood of San Francisco. The apartment is really cozy and comfortable, we're a couple blocks from the beach and Golden Gate Park, and most importantly, it's a good home base to heal from. (bonus points for a gas fireplace!)

I cannot begin to thank you all enough for your generous contributions and support. It has absolutely been a God send and made this place of healing possible. It's such a relief to be so close to all of my outpatient appointments and at the same time in such a good place. It wouldn't have been an option without your help.

I'm sorry it's been so long since I've posted an update. As much as I'd love to say otherwise, this last month has been especially rough on me. Nothing dangerous or life-threatening, but still an impressive potpourri of nasty symptoms. I'm told it's a combination of the chemo working it's way through and all the drugs I'm currently on (another impressive potpourri). It's been a rollercoaster ride one day to the next, and even one hour to the next. That said, my healthcare team is outstanding and they keep tweaking and adjusting everything to make it more bearable. They keep reminding that this is a marathon, and I'm still in the early stages of healing.

After a life of being healthy and strong and vital, it's been a hard transition to make. It was more ok in the hospital somehow to be moving slow, but being out, it's really gotten me down to feel so weak. This is a temporary thing, and healing will come, but it's a much slower process than I had hoped. Who knew?! I'm human :)

I was a little nervous wondering what it would be like to live with my Mom again as a 45 yr old adult, and I'm happy to report, all is going great on that front. I know it's been hard for her to see me in pain, and not be able to fix it, but we're both getting through this day by day. She flies home tomorrow for a well deserved week's break, and I get a week with my lady love! Yay for both of us!! It's been hard being so close to home and unable to visit, and Christine really is so much of that HOME for me. I can't wait for her to get here tomorrow!

Again, I'm sorry for not being more responsive these last several weeks. Please know that I cherish all of your messages and your support across the miles. It lifts my spirits and makes my boots lighter.

Much love!

Paul

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Comments (14)

  • Jessica Neafsey
    Jessica Neafsey

    Soooo glad to hear this update from you Paul! I hear your spirit and love coming through this tough time clear as a bell..... sending much love ❤️

    one year ago · Reply
    • Paul Murphy
      Paul Murphy

      So beautfully said Jessica. much love to you

      one year ago · Reply
  • Susan Christian
    Susan Christian

    My dear lovely friend. You're doing some heavy heavy lifting and we all thank you for your courage, honesty and adorableness. Yes, you have always been a healthy guy and you had no practice with this bullshit, and you're a fast learner and a stout soldier. It'll be another hammer in your toolkit to have learned how to wade through this type of crap. I'll count on your smile to help me move on through it when it's my turn. Bless your sweet soul. Love to your beautiful mom and your beautiful Chrissy. xoxoxoxoxo darling P.

    one year ago · Reply
    • Paul Murphy
      Paul Murphy

      Oh Susan, you sure know how to put a big smile on my face! ...and so right about it becoming another tool to draw from in the future. Wonderful! much love to you Susan!

      one year ago · Reply
  • Maija West
    Maija West

    Paul, it is so great to get this update from you. You are so missed by all of us! I am happy to hear that, with everything else you are dealing with on an hour by hour basis, having an existential crisis about living with your mom at 45 is not one of them. :) Seriously though, we are cheering you on from back home. I am sending you a big, virtual hug for this week. So glad Chrissy will be with you soon. xo

    one year ago · Reply
    • Paul Murphy
      Paul Murphy

      Seriously, what a treat to have everything good on the Mom front! I miss you all tremendously, and am so happy that at the end of this I get to come home to friends like you and Cody. much love!

      one year ago · Reply
  • Len Murphy
    Len Murphy

    Paul, good to hear from you. You seem to be doing well with the challenges the medications are causing!! Len

    one year ago · Reply
    • Paul Murphy
      Paul Murphy

      It's been tough at times, but I have the wondeful knowledge that all of this will pass and I'll get my life back again. That's a huge blessing right there.

      one year ago · Reply
  • Justin Pauly
    Justin Pauly

    Thank you for the update Paul! Glad to hear that your are settled into the grind and we're thinking good thoughts for you. Hang in there!

    one year ago · Reply
    • Paul Murphy
      Paul Murphy

      Thanks Justin! It feels like a bit of a slog, but the awesome part is it's only temporary. I look forward to seeing you and Charlie when I get back in December.

      one year ago · Reply
  • daniel corcoran
    daniel corcoran

    Start wearing some tie dye and scarves, and hang out at Haight & Ashbury and maybe play some drums in Golden Gate park - you'll be back in top shape in no time! ;-)

    one year ago · Reply
    • Paul Murphy
      Paul Murphy

      Great idea! I'll bust out my didgeridoo. Doctor said to watch out for the brown acid though

      one year ago · Reply
  • sara penn
    sara penn

    Great to see your update. Although you have been at a tough point in your healing it is nice to hear that you have settled into your apartment and feeling comfortable there. I’m sure it was nice to have your Mother there to help and your lady love coming this week. Stay strong, your moving in the right direction!!

    one year ago · Reply
    • Paul Murphy
      Paul Murphy

      Thanks Sally! It seems I've turned a corner and everything's getting better across the board. Rough times and all, it's great to know this is temporary. Hope you and Peter are enjoying the start of autumn.

      one year ago · Reply