Saturday morning here. A beautiful hot summer day in Portland.
Physically I'm feeling pretty good this morning. I had an acupuncture treatment yesterday that really strengthened my body from its core. This from chemotherapy and radiation treatment. My body has been experiencing a lot of fatigue. I've also been experiencing a very weird sensation in my belly which is kind of like nausea, but different. It has been a very interesting and bizarre experience to be feeling such intense (not painful) sensations in my body that seemed to collapse my consciousness into a dull, hazy and fatigued state. At the same time, there is an aspect of my experience in which I am simply sitting with the sensations, the emotions, and experience a relaxation and freedom as I accept all of the experience as it flows in and through me.
I am refreshed by Rumi's words:
"When I run after what I think I want, my days are a furnace of stress and anxiety; If I sit in my own place of patience, what I need flows to me, and without pain. From this, I understand that what I want also wants me, is looking for me and attracting me. there is a great secret here for anyone who can grasp it."