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RyneSpitzer

Ryne is recovering slowly from a severe TBI associated with a MVA on Valentines Day in 2009.

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5-23-18

Good morning. Yesterday and tomorrow has a lot going on, and also everything in between. Aunt Kathy and Grandma Betty arrived yesterday from Michigan just as soooo much was happening. I arrived home from work about 5:20 expecting Michelle (thanks) to be coming over about 5:30 pm. Margaret and Nita had come over to be here with Ryne as Cathy leaves at 4:30. What I did not expect was the hiding stranger, Suzie, who stopped by to say hello. It was such a great surprise, and so  full of emotion. She called Violet (IANAC) who knew my voice immediately. We were talking on speaker in the living room as Michelle was sitting with Ryne on the mat table. What we did not know that only Michelle could see, and that was Ryne turning his head and his expression when he heard Violet's voice. We also could not see his eyes water or his tears gently fall. Sue then told she had someone else she wanted her to say "Hi" to. Not three seconds later while Sue was still walking Violet said, "Hi Ryne". I guess I just got a little lost in the emotion of it all. As Sue talked to Michelle and gently combed Ryne's hair absent-mindedly with her fingers I realized how God has blessed us. Tami arrived with Grandma and Aunt Kathy as Michelle and I were doing Ryne's PT and the visit was on. Joe arrived shortly after, and then Pastor Etharidge and his wife Cathy. Then Robin and our last week of Bible Study commenced. We were finishing Zechariah and having a little pizza. It was quite a night for Ryne, and he seemed up to it. I hope his connecting seizures from Saturday-Sunday are preparing him for more, because since that flurry we have not had any more. As we finished our pizza Pastor filled us in on the blast of comments on messenger about Ryne. Multiple people were randomly commenting on what it will take in them, and corporately, us, before Ryne gets up and transforms everything we know. Just as Tami told Pastor, "I sometimes wonder if God does not intend for Ryne to get up.". He said, "Oh Tami. That is impossible at this point. Too many people have been shown too many things. It is not only going to happen. It is already done.".

Like I told Joe, and I told Michael. Well, we know Ryne can hear better than we thought hearing Violet's voice from the other room, and we know his memory is intact, and we know he cares. Halelujah. I can try another day. Really hard. Right?

Tomorrow is Cale's graduation. Emotional day two.Thank you Lord.

F&P.

https://youtu.be/1srs1YoTVzs

 
"Fear Is A Liar"

When he told you you're not good enough
When he told you you're not right
When he told you you're not strong enough
To put up a good fight
When he told you you're not worthy
When he told you you're not loved
When he told you you're not beautiful
That you'll never be enough

Fear he is a liar
He will take your breath
Stop you in your steps
Fear he is a liar
He will rob your rest
Steal your happiness
Cast your fear in the fire
Cause fear he is a liar

When he told you were troubled
You'll forever be alone
When he told you you should run away
You'll never find a home
When he told you you were dirty
And you should be ashamed
When he told you you could be the one
That grace could never change

Fear he is a liar
He will take your breath
Stop you in your steps
Fear he is a liar
He will rob your rest
Steal your happiness
Cast your fear in the fire
Cause fear he is a liar

Let Your fire fall and cast out all my fears
Let Your fire fall Your love is all I feel

Fear he is a liar
He will take your breath
Stop you in your steps
Fear he is a liar
He will rob your rest
Steal your happiness
Cast your fear in the fire
Cause fear he is a liar

-Zach Williams

https://youtu.be/VzGAYNKDyIU

"Redeemed"

Seems like all I could see was the struggle
Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past
Bound up in shackles of all my failures
Wondering how long is this gonna last
Then You look at this prisoner and say to me "son
Stop fighting a fight that's already been won"

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I'm not who I used to be
I am redeemed, I'm redeemed

All my life I have been called unworthy
Named by the voice of my shame and regret
But when I hear You whisper, "Child lift up your head"
I remember, oh God, You're not done with me yet

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I'm not who I used to be

Because I don't have to be the old man inside of me
'Cause his day is long dead and gone
Because I've got a new name, a new life, I'm not the same
And a hope that will carry me home

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, 'cause I'm not who I used to be

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I'll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, yeah, I'm not who I used to be
Oh, God, I'm not who I used to be
Jesus, oh I'm not who I used to be
'Cause I am redeemed
Thank God, redeemed
Thank God, redeemed

-Big Daddy Weave

 

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