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Ryne is recovering slowly from a severe TBI associated with a MVA on Valentines Day in 2009.

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2-16-19

I wanted to leave a message on the first week of this month, but I just did not muster the courage. Ryne's 29th birthday was on the 5th of this month, right around the time of the Super Bowl. We had a party for him, as would be our habit for all of our kids, and it was good, and it was nice, and it was hard. There were great moments that Ryne gave us of strength and of determination, but I want him so desperately to rise up and tell me his story. Alli and Katie came to see Ryne, and gosh I can not tell you how much I love them for that. They know, but they may never really know. For that I am at fault, for in my despair I did not thank them nearly enough. Then Adam came by last Sunday, the 10th, with Abram and Landry Ryne. Landry's age is still measured in weeks, and is adorable, as was Abram when he came by to see Ryne only weeks into his precious life he still is only scratching the surface of. Then came the 14th, which I always bravely step into, and typically fail to make it through without at least one moment of heavy tears. This year we had our other kids, and we had the memories of the past week, and we had Ryne. That morning he surprised us with the loudest stretch and yawn we had ever heard. He first raised his left arm, and then his right, and has he exclaimed, "Ahhhughhhhhahhh" while arching his back and bending his knees, and then gently turned his head to look at us both. It was incredible. I thought he was going to get up right then and there. He did not, but we did not cry. We thanked God again for His promise, and I was freshly renewed in my love for a creator that loves us as much as God does. I thank him for the patients who continue to ask about Ryne, and you are patient enough with me to wait and are here, and Ryne's friends and loved ones who stand in faith and in love, and Cale, Ariana, Niki, and AJ. They understand us when no one else could possibly. They have witnessed the miracles and know the things that can not occur, but have. They also can not unremember what many would say can not be. We are blessed beyond what we are worthy of, and as if it is not enough to have my life saved over and over, He still loves me enough to make a place for me I hardly deserve. Ryne will tell his story. Oh yes he will, and even though it may not be for my ears, it will be for ears to hear, and it will change for the good the things that should be changed. My song today is by King & Country, and I thank them for it. It is called "God Only Knows".

F&P.

https://youtu.be/Q5cPQg3oq-o

"God Only Knows"

Wide awake while the world is sound asleepin'
Too afraid of what might show up while you're dreamin'
Nobody, nobody, nobody sees you
Nobody, nobody, nobody would believe you
Every day you try to pick up all the pieces
All the memories, they somehow never leave you
Nobody, nobody, nobody sees you
Nobody, nobody, nobody would believe you

God only knows what you've been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows that it's killing you
But there's a kind of love that God only knows
God only knows what you've been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows the real you
But there's a kind of love that God only knows

There's a kind of love that
There's a kind of love

You keep a cover over every single secret
So afraid that if someone saw they would leave
Somebody, somebody, somebody sees you
Somebody, somebody, somebody leave you

God only knows what you've been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows how it's killing you
But there's a kind of love that God only knows
God only knows what you've been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows the real you
But there's a kind of love that God only knows

There's a kind of love that
There's a kind of love
There's a kind of love that
There's a kind of love

For the lonely, for the ashamed
The misunderstood, and the ones to blame
But if we could start over
We could start over
We could start over
For the lonely, for the ashamed
The misunderstood, and the ones to blame
But if we could start over
We could start over
We could start over

But there's a kind of love that God only knows

God only knows what you've been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows the real you
There's a kind of love that God only knows
God only knows what you've been through
God only knows what they say about you
God only knows the real you
But there's a kind of love that God only knows

There's a kind of love that
There's a kind of love
There's a kind of love that
There's a kind of love

God only knows where to find you
God only knows how to break through
God only knows the real you
But there's a kind of love that God only knows

-King & Country

 

 

 

 
 
 

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