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Posted 2017-11-02T13:50:36Z

11-2-17

It is another day and I am feeling the lateness of the year by the darkness of my backdrop. We should be "falling back" this weekend, but still we will be enveloped with the darkness of the 'quarter-year'. Ryne did great yesterday and was wonderful and strong in his PT (thanks Bob) last evening. I am dismayed at the sight of what seems to be a 'new' stye on the lower lid of Ryne's left eye medial to the where his recent removal of one took place. There is a clear side gap between the healing site of the old one and the new, so it is not a continuation of or extension of the old. Why? Grrr, after all of these years. He otherwise just looks so good. He was awake and alert all day and slept incredibly well last night. Why is that not enough for me? I am standing on the word given, and I am standing on the dreams and visions of others, and also my own, awake and asleep, and I am expecting. When? Last night he signaled for the urinal from Michael at 11 pm, and after went into a deep sleep until signaling again at 5:30 am successfully. Michael said that in between he did not even awaken for turns. I just miss that guy, as I know many do. When God?

F&P.

I don't know why this is still playing in my head. It has to be for someone still...

 

https://youtu.be/CkHAvm8cfSI

"Better Man"

I know I'm probably better off on my own
Than loving a man who
Didn't know what he had when he had it
And I see the permanent damage you did to me
Never again, I just
Wish I could forget when it was magic

I wish it wasn't 4 AM, standing in the mirror
Saying to myself, you know you had to do it
I know, the bravest thing I ever did was
Run

Sometimes, in the middle of the night, I can feel you again
But I just miss you, and I just wish you were a better man
And I know why we had to say goodbye like the back of my hand
And I just miss you, and I just wish you were a better man
A better man

I know I'm probably better off all alone
Than needing a man who could
Change his mind at any given minute
And it's always on your terms
I'm hanging on every careless word
Hoping it might turn sweet again
Like it was in the beginning

But your jealousy, I can hear it now
You're talking down to me like I'll always be around
You push my love away like it's some kind of loaded gun
Boy, you never thought I'd run

Sometimes, in the middle of the night, I can feel you again
But I just miss you, and I just wish you were a better man
And I know why we had to say goodbye like the back of my hand
And I just miss you, and I just wish you were a better man
A better man
Better man

I hold onto this pride because these days it's all I have
And I gave to you my best and we both know you can't say that
You can't say that

I wish you were a better man
I wonder what we would've become
If you were a better man
We might still be in love
If you were a better man
You would've been the one
If you were a better man
Yeah, yeah

Sometimes, in the middle of the night, I can feel you again
And I just miss you when I just wish you were a better man
And I know why we had to say goodbye like the back of my hand
And I just miss you, and I just wish you were a better man

We might still be in love if you were a better man
Better man

-Written by Taylor Swift

-Sung by Little Big Town

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