Today I will be grateful.
It’s been 2 years and 9 months since I was diagnosed with Stage 4 Metastatic Breast Cancer. Friday I had my appointment with my Dr. to go over the results of my scan. It has been a year since my last scan, so I was curious to see what was going on inside this body of mine. He had good news – only one little lesion measuring about 1 cm was visible. I will take that news and carry on. Yay for the cocktail of med’s that I’m on doing their job!! Dr. Park thinks I’m a bit crazy – while looking at the pictures I told him that was one sexy liver – he laughed and said he’s never heard one describe their organs that way. Although, I also told him I was a professional ballerina when he asked what I did for a living -sooo there’s that. I guess he won’t forget me.
In going forward, I would love prayers that these medicines I’m on will continue working for a long time. Ibrance only came out 6 months before I was diagnosed. The Doc also told me that I’m the 3rd longest person he has had on these - there are only 2 that have been on them for 6 months longer – for everyone else they have failed and they have had to move on to try and find different medicines and chemo’s to try and keep them alive. I told him I want to win and be the longest (I’m a bit competitive) and he said that wasn’t really nice to the other 2 people (oh yeah – I want them to live too). If you could also pray that my side effects would be minimal that would be great. With no estragon my body thinks it’s 80 and there are day’s my joints and bones are very sore. My skin is super dry, thin and itchy. I have some trouble sleeping and the hot/cold flashes don’t help. There are days that I’m just tired and I don’t want to be – I have way to much going on in my life. I don’t usually talk about the bad things that come along with this journey but I want to be real. I have friends dying every week and I don’t want to minimize this disease. I want you all to know that I am so happy that God has granted me more time here on earth with ya’ll (especially those grandbabies of mine). But it can change at any moment – cancer has a mind all of its own. I trust God with my future – whether it’s another year or ten more years – or one more day – I’m just happy to be here!
My sweet friend Arnette gave me an awesome verse to keep close to my heart (and possibly a new tattoo):
But as for me, I trust in You, O Lord.
I say “You are my God.”
My times are in Your hand.
This has been a milestone year for me – I turned 50 and have been #celebratingtheheckoutof50 – and will continue to do so all year! I’ve never been so happy to have a birthday! And if cancer has taught me anything it’s that life is such a gift – everyday is a gift from God and Today I will be Grateful.