Courtesy of Dorrie: "We wear hats and have joy in celebration of the day you beat cancer!!"[...]
I lift my eyes to the mountains—where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip—he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The Lord watches over you—the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
7 The Lord will keep you from all harm—he will watch over your life;
8 the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.[...]
Yesterday was a long day. Hospital pre-op and doctor's appointments. And some decisions to make.
Reconstruction has been a big decision for me. Both of my grandmothers had breast cancer, and neither one had reconstruction. So I grew up with my grandmothers having one breast, and it seemed perfectly fine to me! I have never been in the hospital, except to have my babies, and I have never had surgery. So adding something else to my breast cancer diagnosis seemed difficult. It could be at least one additional surgery, possibly two, after my initial mastectomy. The prosthetics made now are very nice. They can even make them individually, to match your own body, even having the same skin tone and freckles :-) Even still, breast cancer takes part of a woman's body has been very important. It's just part of being a girl :-)[...]
So today I took my mom to the doctor. As I looked down at the books I had taken to read it while she was at her appointment, I realized that my life is changing. As much as I would like to change it, this is what I have to deal with. When you have cancer everything else is put on hold.[...]
So, there is a plan. I have a mastectomy scheduled for next week. Not my first choice, but a lumpectomy isn't the best choice for me. I've struggled so much the past week with the decision on whether to take a medical approach to healing or a natural choice to healing.[...]