Joy. Pure joy. I can't explain it. But I know from where it comes.
Leaning on God and trusting. James 1:2-4( taken from The Message)[...]
So, I had one drain taken out yesterday. It hurt a bit but I was so glad to get it out. Now I have one;)
This afternoon i noticed some new swelling and tonight it felt weird to lay my arm against my side. So I texted my WONDERFUL doctor. I told him I felt like a big gummy bear had taken residence under my arm😳. He said it sounded like a seroma which is basically a build up of fluid under the skin. [...]
So thankful to be on this side of surgery. It's a big deal! But feeling so blessed to receive the news that the cancer had not spread into the sentinel nodes. I still do not know results from pathology, but I believe that will happen on my post-op visit in a few weeks. [...]
I lift my eyes to the mountains—where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip—he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The Lord watches over you—the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
7 The Lord will keep you from all harm—he will watch over your life;
8 the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.[...]
Yesterday was a long day. Hospital pre-op and doctor's appointments. And some decisions to make.
Reconstruction has been a big decision for me. Both of my grandmothers had breast cancer, and neither one had reconstruction. So I grew up with my grandmothers having one breast, and it seemed perfectly fine to me! I have never been in the hospital, except to have my babies, and I have never had surgery. So adding something else to my breast cancer diagnosis seemed difficult. It could be at least one additional surgery, possibly two, after my initial mastectomy. The prosthetics made now are very nice. They can even make them individually, to match your own body, even having the same skin tone and freckles :-) Even still, breast cancer takes part of a woman's body has been very important. It's just part of being a girl :-)[...]