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Posted 2019-01-13T05:52:48Z

Hard times

It’s late on a Saturday evening less than 24 hours after Stacy was discharged from her 3rd chemo treatment at Stanford.  She was desperate for a ‘normal day’ so we spent it window shopping and girl time.  As exhausted as she was, she found the perfectly soft sweatshirt and some time to feel like everyone else.  She sleeps soundly as I type this out.  ☺️

Although she is approaching the halfway mark for her chemo treatments as of the beginning of February, it feels like a million miles to go for her. As the treatments tick by, she has increased fatigue, nausea, mouth and gut irritation and a general feeling that life will never feel normal again.  As normal as all those feelings are, it is tough.  She appreciates every comment and kind word shared, and every dollar donated to help  carry her through this journey.  She feels stressed that she can’t keep up with correspondence, even if it’s because she is in agonizing arm/hand pain. :(.  And as incredible as the cancer treatment has been at Stanford is, she is aware it is so very costly.  She has good health insurance but when she got a bill for $10,000 when she was discharged yesterday, even a person feeling ‘normal’ would have the wind knocked out of them.   She has to get a 2nd opinion for her tumor surgery, and the thought of nerve grafts and loss of some arm/hand function is overwhelming.  It’s all so much for one small (but mighty) person to handle.

So, that’s the tough stuff.  And it’s really tough.  But then there’s the good stuff.  All the dozens of ways people have reached out to lend her a hand, lift her spirits and visit her and show love and support in practical ways matter.  A lot.  I know it’s hard for her to feel how she will make it through to the other side of this harrowing journey, but one way or another, she will and it will in part be because of all of you.  Despite that, cancer is also a solo journey, no matter how many people there are alongside. It comes down to doing the very next thing, when it needs to be done, one breath at a time.  And having hope, enormous grit and faith to make it one more step.  And step by step, before she knows it, she will have conquered it!  But for now, it’s hard and she can use your prayers, good thoughts, and whatever you can throw her way emotionally and practically to get her to the end goal of back to life as ‘normal’.  

For those of you who’ve been asking about where to send cards, letters or gifts, please send them to her home address of:

Stacy Graupmann
4070 Nord Hwy
Building 9, Apt #256
Chico, CA. 95973 are a few pictures below from the last two days.  I am grateful for all of you who not only support Stacy, but give our family encouragement knowing that she is not alone.....

with love,


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Comments (8)

  • Juliet LaFleur
    Juliet LaFleur

    Dear Stacy & fam- I ache that you are going through this. Sometimes it's so hard- I remember watching Jennifer go through this and just praying, wishing I could take it from her...Know that you are so very loved and held tightly in my heart and that I pray for you all the time... Much, much love and strength to you, my friend. And blessings that you have your sweet family helping you through.--- Julie L.

    one year ago · Reply
  • Laura Fifield
    Laura Fifield

    I thank God for your excellent health care at this time in your life. Take heart in knowing you are in the best hands...Our Lord’s and that of world-class physicians. God has provided so well for you. You must be one special woman in His eyes ;) Prayers going up for you. Laurie

    one year ago · Reply
  • Alisa

    I can only imagine what the sound of your name must sound like as we all send up our prayers for you....the roar of an ocean or the steady stream of a bubbly brook....HE is listening! I pray for strength and a feeling of peace, for courage and for faith ♥️ Love you sweet survivor sister!

    one year ago · Reply
  • Norma Lee Reynolds
    Norma Lee Reynolds

    Oh dear Stacy - my prayers are with you. May God grant you peace and strength, and takes all the pain and discomfort from you. In The Name of Jesus!!

    one year ago · Reply
  • Shannon Coon
    Shannon Coon

    I can’t even imagine how hard this time must be. I’m so sorry that you have to go through this. I will continue to lift you up in prayer for strength, stamina, healing through the treatments, great medical advice, relief from the stress of the bills and more times of feeling “normal.” You are loved - by many people but also by our Almighty God!

    one year ago · Reply
  • Robin Swartz
    Robin Swartz

    I have been sharing your journey with my family and giving thanks that you are being taken care of by your preciouse family! I've heard that twins share a special bond, but I'd like to think that God gave you Lisa for these times especially- I can see how very close she is to you. I have been reminded in my own life's journey (one that is no where near as challenging as yours right now!) that God's strength is made perfect in my weakness. Even in the midst of this terrible battle with your body, be encouraged that you have strength that is ready to bolster you... Shown by your precious sister, your friends, and by the talented people who have spent their lives learning and preparing to care for you while you fight this nasty disease. God bless you my friend!

    one year ago · Reply
  • Joy Anderson Kimball
    Joy Anderson Kimball

    Hi Stacy! You are in my thoughts and prayers each and everyday. We're meeting tomorrow and getting a box ready to mail to you! It will arrive full of our love, prayers and hope for you! Joy

    one year ago · Reply
  • Leah Jones
    Leah Jones

    My heart is hurting for you Stacy. I am so sorry for what you are going through. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers everyday. Praying for God's provision for every need; strength, courage, hope, pain relief, medical bills, and healing, Love and hugs to you

    one year ago · Reply