It’s late on a Saturday evening less than 24 hours after Stacy was discharged from her 3rd chemo treatment at Stanford. She was desperate for a ‘normal day’ so we spent it window shopping and girl time. As exhausted as she was, she found the perfectly soft sweatshirt and some time to feel like everyone else. She sleeps soundly as I type this out. ☺️
Although she is approaching the halfway mark for her chemo treatments as of the beginning of February, it feels like a million miles to go for her. As the treatments tick by, she has increased fatigue, nausea, mouth and gut irritation and a general feeling that life will never feel normal again. As normal as all those feelings are, it is tough. She appreciates every comment and kind word shared, and every dollar donated to help carry her through this journey. She feels stressed that she can’t keep up with correspondence, even if it’s because she is in agonizing arm/hand pain. :(. And as incredible as the cancer treatment has been at Stanford is, she is aware it is so very costly. She has good health insurance but when she got a bill for $10,000 when she was discharged yesterday, even a person feeling ‘normal’ would have the wind knocked out of them. She has to get a 2nd opinion for her tumor surgery, and the thought of nerve grafts and loss of some arm/hand function is overwhelming. It’s all so much for one small (but mighty) person to handle.
So, that’s the tough stuff. And it’s really tough. But then there’s the good stuff. All the dozens of ways people have reached out to lend her a hand, lift her spirits and visit her and show love and support in practical ways matter. A lot. I know it’s hard for her to feel how she will make it through to the other side of this harrowing journey, but one way or another, she will and it will in part be because of all of you. Despite that, cancer is also a solo journey, no matter how many people there are alongside. It comes down to doing the very next thing, when it needs to be done, one breath at a time. And having hope, enormous grit and faith to make it one more step. And step by step, before she knows it, she will have conquered it! But for now, it’s hard and she can use your prayers, good thoughts, and whatever you can throw her way emotionally and practically to get her to the end goal of back to life as ‘normal’.
For those of you who’ve been asking about where to send cards, letters or gifts, please send them to her home address of:
4070 Nord Hwy
Building 9, Apt #256
Chico, CA. 95973
https://www.gofundme.com/stacygraupmannHere are a few pictures below from the last two days. I am grateful for all of you who not only support Stacy, but give our family encouragement knowing that she is not alone.....