It has taken me a bit to find my words and gather my thoughts. That’s the funny thing about cancer, it forever brings you on a rollercoaster ride. It brings you up and down, sometimes leaving you speechless, other times just numb. It makes you appreciate so much more and yet other times it crushes you.
Mom continues to amaze me with her fight. It was two weeks ago that we got called in to the oncologist. The tumors in her body have shrunk significantly, but the cancer is spreading in her brain. Thursday she began yet another chemo treatment in hopes that she can knock them down. Only time will tell. There are days that she feels quite dizzy and tired. Cancer is exhausting. It would be so easy to fixate on the negative.
Perhaps the best words and thoughts for this battle, would be the words mom said to the doctor as we were leaving. “You know,” she said, “ This year has really sucked. There has been a lot of crap going on, but there has also been a lot of beauty.” I think we all should focus on each days beauty. Maybe we are missing out.