Written last night-October 31st
"Therefore if there is any 💛consolation in Christ, if any 💛comfort of love, if any 💛fellowship of the Spirit, if any 💛affection and mercy, fulfill my joy by being like-minded, having the same love, being of one accord, of one mind." ~Philippians 1:1-2
Our time at the Mayo Clinic started with a post-op appointment followed by a blessed visit with my cancer partner friend who recently had surgery at the Rochester Methodist Hospital. She was supposed to be discharged on Sunday but needed a few more days to recover just like I did. Thankfully, she was ready to be dismissed on the day we saw her, so she was cheerful, upbeat, feeling good and able talk about how God brought her through this difficult surgery. Glen also had a blessed time visiting with her husband. We were so thankful to be given this opportunity to fellowship with our dear sister and brother in the Lord and we even made a date to get together again when we're both feeling better.
The next day I had my blood drawn and all my levels were normal; my chest scan was normal as well. Our next appointment consisted of meeting with a P.A. for consultation before chemo. During the course of our conversation, I brought up my faith in Jesus Christ and told her this is how I am getting through cancer with a positive outlook. I then gave her the gospel tract and cancer booklets which were enclosed in a pretty, red flowered bag. She immediately opened the packet and thumbed through the "What Cancer Cannot Do" booklet and said she has been looking for verses to give to to her cancer patients regarding entering into eternity. She was so excited to receive the materials and we were so excited to see God working in a marvelous way.
"Ask and you will receive, that your joy may be full." ~John 16:24b
A little while later, I was ready to start my second chemo. After waiting patiently for over an hour in the chemo department, I began to wonder why the nurse was not starting the procedure. Finally, the same P.A. who I had the consult with came into the room and said she was just notified that our insurance company is stalling the payment process on the expensive chemo drug, because they need to get a doctor from Mayo to talk with their 'insurance doctor' over the phone. Sure enough their insurance doctor wasn't available today. Hopefully, this phone conversation will take place and be resolved on Monday. In the meantime, the P.A. was not at all happy with the turn of events, and waited to see how we would 'react.' But somehow God kept us cool and calm and Glen and I collected our thoughts and asked God for wisdom. We both decided to hold off taking the expensive drug until we have proper verification from the insurance company. Since I take two different chemo infusions, I was able to have the other drug which is most effective anyway. For now, everyone in the department is watching and waiting to see how this matter will turn out. The staff has a keen awareness that God is in the picture and so we are praying for more open doors in the weeks to come.
One thing I have learned though this whole ordeal is that God certainly does not want me to ever give chemo the credit for a cancer cure. If He allows it to be an effective tool in fighting my cancer, then He does. But if He chooses not to go that route, then I must believe He is still powerful enough to work on my behalf without the aid of modern medicine. Friends, do you believe with all your heart that this is the truth of the matter? I pray you join me in heart and soul and know this is true.
Tonight, I am at peace knowing God's will is always good, always acceptable and always perfect in every way, even if things don't work out as we think they should. God has not overlooked my situation. He knows my every turn of events. He knows what is best for me and what is not. He also knows what He's doing in my life and His delay means I am to "sit still...until (I) know how the matter will turn out." Ruth 3:18
"And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that 💛good and 💛acceptable and 💛perfect will of God." ~Romans 12:2
Your prayers in faith and love have been so appreciated. Thank you for praying instantly and specifically on my behalf. God will give us an answer in His good time.
God's delays are always for His glory! Count on Him as the greater source of Life!