One of the many faces of childhood cancer......

Natalia accidentally fell yesterday at the therapist's office. It happened very quickly, as she was walking out, she looked back to get something and down she went....... She is fine, thank God, physically she is fine....but her war wounds from her cancer journey are wide open, bleeding, and still hurting TODAY. She broke down and said that she did not want doctors, hospitals, needles, medicines....please momma, don't take me to the emergency room. I'm tired of doctors, scans, emergency rooms, hospitals, needles, medicines.....please don't take me....PLEASE! She pleaded with me.... The therapist said......mom, she's tired. Watching in the sidelines as my little girl is violently stripped of her childhood. Trading it for weekly hospitalizations, toxic medicines, ports, emergency room visits, anesthesia, surgeries, being poked and prodded, REAL physical pain, scans.....she was thrust head first into the cancer world. A world that NO CHILD should have to endure. It is beyond unfathomable. She was made to grow up.......FAST....NOW. As a mom, you wish you could take it for them.... from the first devastating sign that the chemo was working, causing the hair on her head to become opaque and brittle....and the shocking reality that her beautiful long head of hair was dead....causing endless nights of weeping....even now. I have had to watch painfully all the different stages that encompass this childhood cancer world....and some days it is totally unbearable.... Gone are the days in which she ran free, doing cartwheels as she pleased. Days she wishes, to this day, that she could come back to. She just wants to be a normal kid. As harsh as the reality of childhood cancer is, the GOD we serve is BIGGER. He has us in the palms of his hands....even through all of the tears and pain. Some days it is too much to handle, I just have to shift my focus to the one who CAN handle this....Jesus Christ. THROUGH HIM....I CAN. I CAN'T.....BUT HE CAN. NATALIA CAN'T....BUT JESUS CAN. He has already set aside my daily provision of strength. WHAT WOULD WE HAVE DONE WITHOUT HIM? We would have perished. We would have sank. Our HOPE is in The Lord.... Philippians 4:13 I CAN DO ALL THINGS through Christ who strengthens me. Isaiah 40:29 He gives power to the weak, And to those who have NO might He increases strength. 2 Corinthians 12:9 And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. I want to thank everyone that has supported us through our journey....THANK YOU, your support means the world to us!