Post-op x1 day

Yesterday was such a loooong day. In the morning, Natalia delayed getting up and out of bed....when she finally emerged, she softly blurted out "Mommy, I'm scared"....as I talked to her about her feelings, I ended with...."give it to JESUS.." She answered, "but then HE'LL be scared!!!" We both ended up laughing.....THAT is Sofia's essence....right there!! Lol In preop, Natalia was surrounded by LOVE...it was a mixed array of emotions. She was entertained by the nurse with the vein finder...and her visitors! But when it was time to go back to the O. R. She broke down....."I don't want to go, mommy.." she cried out. It was heart wrenching to watch them wheel our baby girl out of preop into a restricted area. As the hours went by, a nurse would come out for updates every hour....I had to consciously keep putting my eyes back to JESUS...because the worry and anxiety of what was going on, and all the what if's were iso overwhelming, that I felt like I was suffocating. Lining my emotions in obedience to Christ and His word. What does HE SAY? That I CAN do this THRU HIM, who gives me the strength to do it...that he has commanded me to be STRONG and COURAGEOUS...even though I just said goodbye to my baby girl for a 4-6 hour risky surgery.....TRUSTING in HIM at ALL times. When these moments want to drown us with sorrow and heaviness, remembering that THROUGH Jesus, FOCUSING in who HE is in my life.....is essential for survival. I kept drawing my strength from him, Jesus, the one who is the great I AM. My strength, strong tower, refuge, shield, comforter, provider, hope, peace, and the list goes on. It takes a conscious effort from our part to actively do this...it is NOT going to come naturally. But GOD......while she was getting her modified version of a spica cast, the surgeon came out to inform us that everything went BETTER than anticipated! We are truly grateful for having an AWESOME surgeon! The cast is half the size of the last one! (Praises to JESUS!), there was ANOTHER broken screw...it was just a matter of time before the whole thing completely fell apart, BUT the bone appeared to be trying to heal...and now with the graft, we are praying that the trauma of the surgery and the grafted bone will stimulate bone growth. The "toolbox" from Home Depot with the hardware that he'd originally ordered was NOT needed, the incision was smaller than anticipated, and he was able to keep the original plate that she had since the beginning, while adding an extra plate for support. Thank you Jesus, because Natalia sofia is in your hands! Because you are in control of our circumstance, and your presence is with us...God is sooo good!! She's eaten well, no vomiting after the surgery....thank goodness! We tried to get her up to the edge of the bed....and to no avail. :( She's moved out of the constant morphine drip and into oral meds....the nurse noticed that she's barely used the demand button since she moved from recovery....amazing....she's always had a high pain tolerance! Praying that tomorrow is a better day....in terms of moving to the edge of the bed. Praying that the Lord's peace inundates her as she starts to face life temporarily with this new and improved cast...TRUSTING JESUS in this journey...... Hebrews 10:35-36 So do not throw away this confident TRUST in the Lord. Remember the great reward it brings you! Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God’s will. Then you will receive all that he has promised. Psalm 91:14-15 The Lord says, “I will rescue those who love me. I will protect those who TRUST in my name. When they call on me, I will answer; I will be with them in trouble. I will rescue and honor them. Psalm 40:5 O Lord my God, you have performed many wonders for us. Your plans for us are too numerous to list. You have no equal. If I tried to recite all your wonderful deeds, I would never come to the end of them.