Thank you to all our friends and family!

I've received so many texts, IM's and messages with words of encouragement, love and support and I appreciate it so much! 

But please know that I am OKAY.  We've expected his treatment to take this turn at some point and honestly, we thought it would be 2 months ago.  

I posted this on Facebook today but I know not everyone is on Facebook......

Thank you everyone for your prayers, thoughts and positive vibes. We are so lucky to have so many amazing people in our lives. I do feel blessed, considering the situation. The time we've had since his diagnosis has been a gift, a gift that one day the girls will realize was one of the best gifts ever. Right before Steve starts the next chemo treatment (May), we will talk to the girls and let them know what's going on and that chemo will end this fall. But until then we will let them enjoy not knowing what the future holds so they can have fun in Disneyland and at the Father Daughter Dance. We've done a lot of reading up on how to handle the situation, some say wait till they have to know, some say be honest with them from the beginning ... we've always been honest with them and we want to continue that now. I need to gain their trust so they believe me when I say that we will be okay.

I know how hard this is as a kid since I was there once myself (those of you that don't know, my brother had cancer when he was 15 and I was 13 but he's doing great and turning 45 next month!!). I've been going to counseling for a year and a half and part of that has been about how to help them. Steve and I have had many discussions and while we don't ever want to tell them, we know we have to and we believe the sooner the better. He wants to be able to help them through this as much as he can, and I think that will be better for them too. Of course we have no idea what the right thing is to do, but we are in agreement and will handle it together. We have an amazing support system between our family,, friends and even the school. They have AMAZING teachers and they have been in the know from the beginning and are ready to jump in as needed. Those are our blessings.

So if you are the praying kind, please keep us in your prayers that Steve will be able to tolerate this treatment for the 12 weeks, and that we all have the strength to get through this time together as a family.

Nothing has changed for us. We will just keep moving forward with our every day and try and put in as much extra time together as we can. And enjoy all the good and the bad together. xoxo