Day 39- PRAYER
I'm in the waiting room of the Cancer Center, waiting for the call that tells me that the MRI went ok.
After a long morning of the usual 'no feeding before a scan' angst, we made it in for the MRI. The team decided that due to his history with breathing issues with sedation that they were going to intubate him. I know this is the safest route. I know it's best. But I can't stop being afraid.
The last time I handed him over to an MRI his airway closed on the table. That code blue is still ringing in my ears. So I'm sitting here waiting for him to be done and praying that everything is ok. Praying I don't hear alarms sounding and watch people run to help.
Praying, praying, praying.
Words from an old hymn that a kindred cancer Mom shared with me today...
God moves in a mysterious way, His wonders to perform.
He plants His footsteps in the sea, And rides upon the storm.
Ye fearful saints, fresh courage take, The clouds you so much dread,
Are filled with mercy and shall break, In blessing on your head.
I don't feel that I often get 'signs' of comfort. But this one feels very clear. A young man just came in the lobby looking for the outpatient center. I gave him poor directions to get there before he told me he was looking for his nurse that had been with him when he was a patient here as a child. He was handsome, smiley, and so perfectly healthy looking. And all I could see was my own son, at 25, healthy and happy. Visiting as a SURVIVOR.
Little moments reminding me of His presence. He's holding Red.
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You are such an inspiration! Sending thoughts and prayers your way!
Praying with you for good news and all to go well.
Praying for you and Redden right now, Beri! I believe those are signs from God, just for you, in just this moment. Thanks for sharing this and allowing so many to walk this journey with your family. Please keep us updated!
What a gift...the sign the Lord gave you today in the young, healthy survivor! What an evidence of His grace. Tuck that one away. (If you see him again, get a photo!) I love that hymn, too! I think you should download it and listen to it as you wait and pray. Hymns of praise and TRUTH speak deeply to me and help align my fearful emotions to TRUTH. God be with you. He's got you and Redden.
Praying hard for Red! #GoRedGo
I'm praying for you. I know that hymn. It has helped me through some very difficult times, too. Now that you've mentioned that hymn, it will be in my mind all day, and I will think about Redden and pray for him.
Oh yay! What a wonderful promise from God!
Dear Lord, Thank you for giving Beri the encouragement she needed when she needed it. Amen.
God moves in a mysterious way His wonders to perform; He plants His footsteps in the sea And rides upon the storm. Deep in unfathomable mines Of never failing skill He treasures up His bright designs And works His sovereign will. Ye fearful saints, fresh courage take; The clouds ye so much dread Are big with mercy and shall break In blessings on your head. Judge not the Lord by feeble sense, But trust Him for His grace; Behind a frowning providence He hides a smiling face. His purposes will ripen fast, Unfolding every hour; The bud may have a bitter taste, But sweet will be the flower. Blind unbelief is sure to err And scan His work in vain; God is His own interpreter, And He will make it plain.
What a wonderful sign for you this morning, mama. Thinking of little Redden today. <3
When life gets too hard to stand, kneel. Go little Red!
You are amazing! I'm keeping that image of a healthy, 25-year old Red in my mind today too. <3
Beri, I am praying for you. God is holding you SO TIGHTLY. You are making other people's faith stronger - you and Redden and your whole family. Blessings to you today, and prayers for a smooth procedure. Love you! Lisa
Redden has so many people behind him, praying and offering positive thoughts. He is strong and in God's hands. You and Brian are doing everything you can for him. Take comfort in that and that and remember that lovely hymn.
Prayers for Redden and your whole family.
praying for you all
wow...tearing up. He is holding Red...faith in HIM as he takes care of Red! Prayers for positive news that you can latch on to and start to shed the fear. xoxo
I agree with you that God sent that man to give you little sprinkles of faith. Love you Beri. Keep holding Redden. Your love is healing him. xoxoxo mom.
Amen and Hallelujah! Loving you, Laura