Day 101- THIRD MRI
This morning we went for our third MRI. These are always hard days... No eating after 4am, lots of paperwork, telling his history over and over again, and then lots of waiting. But we made it through all that, and I'm sitting in his freezing cold room (why are they always so cold??!!), waiting on his MRI to finish. This time he wasn't intubated and they decided to try sedation only. The last time that was attempted was when we were introduced to the term Code Blue. To say I've been scared today is putting it mildly. I'm terrified. But the hallway has been quiet and my body has become more relaxed the closer we get to the finish line. And I took a million pictures of his grabbing his feet and charming the nurses and have been furiously texting them to Brian who's with our other two. Focusing on the cute moments can be a good distraction.
Holding his body and watching him go under sedation was pure torture. He was fighting it and trying to stay with me, arching his back and breathing quickly while death-gripping my finger. The doctor asked me to stop talking to him bc he was so responsive to my voice. I had a hard time with that, panicking that each breath was a struggle and whispering 'it's ok baby, you're ok you're ok you're ok. Is he ok? You're ok you're ok.'
Nurse just came in and said only 30 more minutes to go!! Then he's back in my arms and we can start to look forward to going home again. We aren't sure when we will hear the results, so we will just be a ball of anxiety, tears, and prayers for the next day or two. As Brian just told me 'I hate this part. Nope, I hate all of it.'
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I found myself holding my breath and trying not to move as a read this, as if I were going thru an MRI myself. I can't imagine how hard it is to be told not to comfort your child with your voice...
Love you so so much! So many prayers and so much love coming y'all's way!!!
We (my husband and I) continue to pray for you, Redden and all of your family. God is a God of miracles. We know that because of the record of miracles in the Bible. We know that He is the same yesterday, today and forever, so we are praying for a miracle for Redden. Whether it comes through the medicine he is given or one of those astounding cures that points straight to our Lord, we pray for a miracle. We have come to love that child, his brothers and his parents.
Prayers!!!
I love your little boy!
Seeing the picture of Redden reaching for his toes I couldn't help but think of our son Joseph who is the same age as your son and reaching the same milestones. They even look a little alike. I can not fathom what you are going through but know this.... I pray for you and Redden that God may give you the strength to endure this very heavy cross. As I read your posts I feel a great heaviness with what you are going through.
Prayed all night. Prayed today. Thinking of you and praying for strength and healing for you, Redden and Brian especially. oxoxoxo
praying that God hears the prayers of so many and that the news is positive. my heart aches for you.