Tuesday, June 21st.

I’m not exactly sure what to say or how to describe how I have been feeling today, it was a whirlwind of confusion, hope, sadness, and great happiness. What I do know, is that when Cory drove us home from the hospital, I was crying. I didn’t think I would ever ride in the passenger side of our car with the windows down and him driving while we sang along to Kesha ever again. If you would have told me a week and a half ago that this was in my near future, I would have said you were crazy and that dreaming won’t get us out of this mess.
 
Cory was discharged from the hospital around 6:30/7pm today. He has a new list of medications to take, some to change, but ultimately his blood pressure is somehow withstanding the medications for heart failure that it couldn’t tolerate last year. And of course, we don’t know why. His heart rate is staying in the 80’s, something it wasn’t able to do last year, and all of his levels are just perfect. Actually, I believe they said something like “his blood pressure has never been this good, its exactly where we want it to be”.
 
One of my friends told me today that if they ever doubted miracles before, they never will again. And he asked that I do the same. I do believe in medical miracles, and while I do not share the religious beliefs of many of you that prayed for him, I thank you with my whole heart. I would also like to give credit where credit is due. Cory has a will to live unlike anyone that I know. He wants to be here, he wants to be in our home, he wants to be here with me and with you. I think we were all really afraid of losing Cory, but I think he was also not ready to lose any of us. There are too many memories to be had that he wasn't ready to give up on yet.
 
Cory is not only home, but he does not need dialysis anymore. His kidneys are doing their job. And while his liver is a bit behind, it’s doing really well. I asked a doctor friend about why his liver and kidneys were damaged, and he told me it was because when he needed CPR his heart had stopped, and with that the blood flow stops, causing immediate damage to the liver and kidneys. But, even with their decent resume and with no references at all, and even considering they tried to put in their notice, they took the job back with full force and are doing great.
 
Life is of course going to be different again, but it has been for so long that I almost don’t feel like I know any other way. But some things never change, Cory insisted that he walk out of the hospital again today. No wheelchair, no cane. He was going to walk out. And he did.