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Posted 2018-10-18T21:26:48Z

CLEAN!!!

I’ve been feeling super down lately after stupidly signing up for a mentor program through the hospital. I was matched with a young gal who was very proud to share her Hogkins journey with me. Her experience is what I would call the worst case scenario in terms of treatment. But she is alive and several years removed from cancer and proud to share her story. So I listened in fear as this girl innocently planted scary ideas in my head. Maybe not the greatest mentor match. And then the news this week about Paul Allen really bummed me out. Cancer doesn’t discriminate. I was caught moping on the sidewalk in front of our house, bottling up all these fears in my mind when a friend stopped me and said “comparison is the thief of joy.” -Sheila G. Or some president. Doesn’t matter. In that moment, truer words couldn’t have been spoken. When I start to compare myself to other people’s stories, all of my inner strength, positive thinking and hopes are all squashed. I need to stay focused on what I have fought so hard for and remember my hopes for the future. I am the strongest I have ever been or even thought was possible. [...]

Posted 2018-10-05T17:56:11Z

Treatment #5 & 6

I rocked treatment #5 and yesterday #6. The week of my fifth treatment, the Providence Cancer Center had just opened a brand new eleventh floor dedicated to infusions and treatment and it is beautiful! I am so happy to be treated in such a clean and state of the art facility. Aesthetics make a world of difference for my well being, especially in a place where I spend so much time filled with stress and worry. My days are long there, typically 6-8 hours. [...]