This is just ridiculous
Hi friends,
I want to let you all know that I had surgery last week to biopsy a tumor growth in my mouth that I felt the day before Thanksgiving (and literally EXACTLY a year to the day of my first surgery, which is totally insane). The results confirmed a recurrence of the cancer and I will be going into surgery tomorrow morning to remove another tumor in the maxilla. My head surgeon will be removing the other half of my upper jaw and some bone that supports the nose, so I will only have one molar left on either side. The plastic surgeon will then jump in and remove the fibula bone from my leg and from that reconstruct the jaw (I don't fully understand how, but I know titanium plates will somehow connect it to my cheek bones and they will eventually grow together). There is a chance of a facial deformity due to the removal of the bone under the nose, but hopefully they can fix that somewhere down the line. The entire surgery will take about 10 hours and I will be at HUP (Hosp of the Univ. of Penn) for 6-7 days. I'll have a feeding tube for a little while and God knows what else is involved that I don't even know about.
Possible radiation and chemo will be discussed at a later date and there will be quite a few reconstructive surgeries over the next 6 months-year. I tried to talk the plastic surgeon into giving me a boob lift if there is extra time but he said that isn't his expertise so I'm out of luck.
I don't really know what to say other than to put the facts out there and ask for your love and support AGAIN (especially at 11:30 am tomorrow) as I start on another leg of this very unexpected journey. I think I am in utter shock and disbelief. It's so surreal. Please pray or meditate or hope that this all goes smoothly. That hasn't really been the pattern in the past but hopefully this one won't have any complications given that it is the hardest surgery yet. 4 head surgeries in 13 months is certainly not what I had planned for.
Sending love,
Kaytie
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My dearest Kaytie, While this seems ridiculous and surreal to you, it's hard for me to believe as well. I am and will continue to send you pure love, light and healing as well as holy guidance for the doctors, surgeons and nurses as you are in their care. Every time you pop into my head a huge smile appears and my heart feels full. I love you so very much...holding you in the light and in my heart, Heidi
Kaytie my prayers and support are with you. I continue to be blown away by your strength during this insanely ridiculous journey. I am determined to reconnect with you so you are Damn sure going to make it through this next phase of surgery and treatment with flying colors. Never fully understood that expression but i know you can beat this and if you want to campaign for boob job donations I'm all over that! Xoxo and love!
Oh Kaytie, my love, prayers, wishes and anything else that I can muster up go out to you. You are one of the most optimistic, energetic, caring people that I have had the pleasure of calling a friend and I hate this for you. Please know that I won't stop thinking of you and sending you positive thoughts and love. Best of luck tomorrow and I will be getting updates from Jenn. Stay strong girl!! Love and kisses, Dawn.
Sending love and healing vibes and prayers for successful procedures and a speedy return to happier days!! Wish you didnt have to, but I know you can do this!
Katie dearest, all I can do is ask God to guide the hands if your surgical team, to give you strength and hope, and to send every blessing to you. Know that much love will be wrapped around. Xo Jeanine
Oh, Kaytie! I am so, so sorry to hear this. Sending love, good thoughts and prayers your way.
My dear sweet kaytie, I love you to the moon and back and am sending you all the positive energy, strength and healing prayers. You are in my thoughts all the time and especially tomorrow. Love and light to you my dear friend. Xoxoxo
Kaytie- cancer is waging quite a battle with your dear sweet body, but it will not win and cannot touch the beauty and bravery of your soul along the way. We are all with you, some near and some far, but at 11:30 tomorrow we'll be your prayer army wherever we are. You are truly the bravest person I know! Cancer doesn't know who it picked a fight with this time! All our love and prayers to you, beautiful Kaytie!
Kaytie Kaytie, I can't understand this and I am in disbelief yet again. You continue to be a pillar of strength and I am just amazed by your you ness. Tomorrow at 1130 I will stop and say a special prayer for you. I will be, and have been, sending you strength and love and light thru this difficult time. I am always by your side Kaytie no matter what. Miles might separate us but my love for you is close. Feel a hug and catch a kiss. I love you xoxoxox elyse
Kaytie, you are a bright light to all you come in contact with. You have amazing strength and positive energy. This may be an unfair blow, but you will endure knowing love for you is all around. Angels are available to bring you strength! Your wonderful family will help you as well as a chorus of beautiful friends. You are a gift and many will be sending you warmth and love as well as prayers. Hugs!
Katie- The Moyer family is standing tall for you and praying for you and chanting for you and bowing for you-- WHATEVER it takes!!!! Em will see you sometime tomorrow- she will be there!!! We love you. Ray, Page , Jed and Emily
Praying for you Katie!! I'm so sorry you are going through all of this again! You can beat it again...you're a strong, beautiful, amazing women and cancer doesn't stand a chance against you!!
Dearest Kaytie, Heard the news today from Judi Brockman and I was so deeply sorry to hear that you are up against another huge challenge! Keep drinking in the deep Love all around you and let it fill you with strength and healing force. I will be thinking of you tomorrow and every day with fervent prayers for your swift recovery, beautiful one!
dear sweet kaytie.... may all the prayers that are being said in your honor make your surgery go smooth and may it be successful... you deserve only the best and G-D will be watching over you... my purpose for tomorrow is to spend as much time as I can praying for you.... love you, susan XOXOX
Kaytie Kaytie Kaytie!!!! You have really been in my thoughts lately and now I know why. I am soooo sorry but I will be praying (begging) for you and your surgeons. Hope it all goes well with NO complications! Love love love love love you sweetypie. Ginger B
Kaytie I may have been quiet and in the background but I must say I have been following you for the past year. YOU are my HERO!. I read, and reread what you posted and all I can do is shake my head in disbelief. I can't even pretend to fathom what must be going through your own thoughts. God be with you tomorrow and the next days, months, and years. Just know us earthly mortals will be here rooting and cheering you on. We will be pushing you upward and onward every step of the way. Hopefully, all of us can help provide you with the strength and fortitude you will need--each and every one of us will give a piece of ourselves to help you find the way. I know I will be watching the clock tomorrow, and stopping several times during the day to pray for you and your recovery. We are here cheering you on girl. Take a deep breath, go with your right foot forward, and stay strong. You are a very special person and don't ever forget that. {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{KATIE}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Not in silence-- Bonnie
Sweet strong Kaytie, I know you are as strong as they come and you are in my thoughts and prayers. I see you enveloped in a circle of light held strong and bright. You are so loved. i will send extra light your way tomorrow. love.
You got it, Kaytie! LIghtning candles and holding with intention and heart open your surgery. Will pray for your doctors to do magic with their hands and will pray spirit to keep your inner smile intact while your face readapts to all the changes. You are loved and dearly cared even for people who have seen you only for two weekends! =) Have faith, you are not alone <3
I'm with you Kaytie. Unreal reality:( sorry you are so far away! Sending my prayers, hugs, smiles, warm soft hands and hopes for sweet dreams and peaceful smooth healing moments beyond all this. I imagine a warm violet ambrosia filling all your cells with miracles and laughter that clears the disease and warms your sparkling soul.
I am praying for you and sending you my warmest and most positive thoughts.
Oh sweet precious Kaytie... What a wild ride this has been and continues to be. Your spirit and sense of humor (I think if you keep at it, you might wrangle that extra plastic surgery thing!) shine through and keep you and all who love you moving forward. I am so sorry to hear of this latest turn. Sending you love and prayers and light always. xoxox Tasha
Much love to you and prayers to Gaia for groundedness and strength, for you and deftness for your caregivers!
Kaytie- You are such a light in this world it is a privilege to pray for you at 11:30 today and in the days to come. You are a warrior and I will pray for your strength and peace as you kick this cancer's ass too!! Love you girl!!!
Dear Kaytie, All of our love and prayers are being sent to you. Your strength and sense of humor with help you through. Like you said, this is just ridiculous:(
Kaytie I am sending prayers of love, hugs, comfort, and healing your way!! Love Twyla Wiggins c/o 95
Kaytie, You and your family are in my prayers! Much Love, Kurt
Dear Kaytie Your beautiful voice and spirit added so much to Sean and Heidi's wedding.,We will storm the heavens foryou. all the children at St. Hilary's will pray for you daily as you take on this journey.You have a gift to be shared by so many. Love and prayers. rosemarie Duffy
Dear, dear Kaytie ! You are so brave and positive! You have been through so much this past year and have pulled through with so much strength and grace. I know you will get through this surgery just as well. Know that Your friends and family are praying hard for you and we are thinking of you every day.. Stay strong Kaytie. I look forward to reading another post from you when you are recuperating from this set back. Hugs and kisses to you sweetie! Sandy and Lou lombardo
Kaytie! Will be sending all my good thoughts and prayers your way on not only this specific day, but every single day until you have made it through this storm. You are such a person of great courage and spread joy, laughter, and beauty wherever you go.
All my prayers going your way. Stay strong Kaytie! Please let me know if there's anything we can do!
Sending love, hugs and prayers. May you continue with your positive attitude and draw your strength from our God.
I wish you lots of hugs and prayers. You keep fighting! NEVER give up! 💜💛❤️