Happy Monday!

It's 9 AM and we've already had a full Monday! We were at proton therapy at 6:30, today was my last 6:30 appointment. The rest are all at 7 AM. Only 7 proton sessions left for at least a while and maybe forever. This became very real when I filled my 7 day pill box (my advent calendar, as I prefer to call it) last night and only had 3 of each chemo pill left over. At first I thought it I'd miscounted somewhere but then I realized that the advent calendar is filled from now until next Sunday and then there are only 3 days left and chemo stops the same day as the proton! So it really is an advent calendar- it stops on Proton Christmas!

I am really looking forward to having a break and a rest after this round of treatment is over so that I can get ready for whatever comes next. For now I only know that I will be back here May 23-26 for follow up and I'm assuming we'll know more then. We do know that I will be on chemo pills for 5 days per month every month, probably for the rest of my life. I will be on the anti-seizure medication indefinitely. We also know that there could be more proton therapy and/or more surgery in my future. For now, however, I'm just focused on the last 7 days of proton therapy and the last ten days of the advent calendar. Could someone tell my husband that there's always a small and inexpensive good surprise in the last advent door. Thanks, that will be very helpful.

So on a scale from 1 to 10, how bad is it that I'm enjoying some downtime without Jason and kids while they are in Lubbock this week? Stevie and I were able to plan our meals for the week, do our grocery shopping, and pick up a few other things I need for this week without any interference. The condo does not have shoes, clothes, and random other things strewn about. I can actually watch the TV on whatever channel I want. I can sit in silence. Bad mother or not, it's awesome!