My God Will Supply

As we prepared for this trip my head was going in about 100 directions at any time. There were so many things to pack, papers to print and appointments to schedule. And at the top of my mind was the question of if Kira's passport would really be ready as we were told it should be, and there was even question of what day we would take custody of Kira.

When my mind started to spin I was reminded of something a friend said, that when she was going into what she knew would be a hard situation, she went with a prayer on her lips and a passage in her heart. My prayers were coming out as little more than “Oh, Lord, help,” so I prayed that God would bring a passage that I would be able to fix my mind on. The next morning, Philippians 4:19 came through my mind –

And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.

I rehearsed this verse in so many ways as I drifted in and out of sleep on the plane, as we secured taxis, as we made our way to the orphanage to find out if she would really be ours that day, and every word in it mattered.

AND my God… He’s done so much and he will also do this.

And MY God… He is my God and I am his child.

And my GOD… What are officials and judges against God?

And my God WILL… God wants Kira home more than we do and he will make it happen.

And my God will supply EVERY need… Lord, we need that passport.

And he answered.

The last three days with Kira I would describe as crying, content and clingy. (Spend enough time with a pastor and three points that start with the same letter start to rub off.) :)

She cried a lot the first day, as we expected. Yesterday she was content, going back and forth from me to Dave to try new toys, a trip to the hotel pool, and some new foods as her parents figure out what’s what in Indian cuisine.

Today was clingy, and she didn’t really let Dave hold her. So I rocked and bounced and strolled and got flopped all over until I looked at Dave as he was about to doze off on the plane ride to Delhi with a look that said, “Don’t you even think about it – you’re in this with me!” (I know we should rest when we can and everything, but it was just the moment…otherwise when we realized today was going to be a clingy day he packed everything and offered me anything I might need while I held and bounced.)

Today led me to rehearse a different section of Philippians 4 – to not be anxious about anything – when my heart rate was ticking a little high.

As I try to wrap this up, the flopping fish toddler returned from sleep only to be stilled again with her head on my shoulder that now feels bruised from how many times she’s flopped her head against it. So we will continue on, praying the next verse in the same chapter as we sleep and as we head to appointments tomorrow – that the peace of God would guard our hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.