“If you think you can win, you can. Faith is necessary to victory.” ~W.
"The will to conquer is the first condition of victory." ~Ferdinand Foch
August 7, 2014 (a Thursday) proved to be an emotional release and roller coast so sweet and hectic that I cannot find the right words to describe it all in a small way. A myriad of emotions, thoughts, feelings, and sheer panic because travelling is not my friend as of late, confusion because my brain and its "new normal", dedication to the truth - something I haven't lost about myself before or after the wreck, and triumph by all things coming together in divine order....all rolled into one day in a courthouse.
"NOT GUILTY" or in legal jargon "Motion/Order of Nolle Prosequi"
The statement is an admission that the charges cannot be proved, that evidence has demonstrated either innocence or a fatal flaw in the prosecution's claim, or the district attorney has become convinced the accused is innocent.
The declaration may be made because the charges cannot be proved due to evidence too weak to carry the burden of proof, because the evidence is fatally flawed in light of the claims brought, or may be made if the prosecutor becomes doubtful the accused is guilty or the defendant's innocence is proved, or if the defendant has died....(well I am not dead thankfully),
.Thanks to the attorney I had to represent my interests and accomplished something my mind would not allow me to process at the speed I needed to since the wreck during the original informal hearing....so I appealed to a formal hearing with a judge.....these beautiful words echo through my ears and soul still and carry me across the waters of despair and exhaustion to a new day of hope and opportunity.....though still exhausted....and fatigued....it is a great gift knowing that truth prevails.....and HOPE lives and that the light at the end of the tunnel of is warmer...
I told my 11 year old son who went with me to the previous informal hearing and saw my sincere struggle due to my TBI, struggling to sort out my thoughts and words and frustration and emotional ovewhelmedness - that he could come to yesterdays proceedings as he begged to. My husband and I talked about it and I promised him he could....so he came...it was very important to HIM he stated.....after all was said and done....through copious amounts of unstoppable rolling tears.....I looked at his precious face....glad to be alive to see it still.....glad that he was there supporting me with my husband....glad for there to be some closure...I had prepared something ahead of time to tell him either direction the decision went. This is what I told him:. "son, this is a valuable lesson for you and something my father taught me when I was your age.....NEVER admit guilt over something you know in your heart you are NOT guilty of...no matter what pressure is put on you, no matter how afraid you are to fail, BE BRAVE......never give in just to get things over with....never give up on yourself and truth"......"even if you lose at things in life or people are mad at you - stand by truth"
A good lesson to live by for myself and a restoration of HOPE in some form continues to grow.....the seed has been planted.....the Cherry Blossom Tree grows taller.....
the legal journey as I know it for this chapter of my life ends here.....