A Quiet Morning
It is an early Wednesday morning and I am sitting in the hospital room Gary has been in since last Monday night. The ongoing battle with the g tube Caleb described in his post was fixed and then last night stopped working, so Gary is back to throwing up until it can be looked at again. He is on day two of the new Chemo and we continue to pray that the chemo will kill off enough cancer to get his bowels going again.
We had to buy a $1,300.00 machine to bring Gary home....it will not be delivered until next Tuesday so it looks like we will be here until then. Needless to say this is one tough battle. ......And your prayers are coveted.
To follow up on some of the things going on, our nephew moved into our PS house so we have not experienced anymore vandalism. It remains on the market but thanks to great desert friends the repairs are done. Our car..when i posted last my car would not shift....stays in third gear and goes no where. It also stalls just where you don't want it to. Our friend took it to his mechanic and it will cost about $4,000.00 to fix.
The car has 206,000 miles on it so we would like to replace it not repair it. But God is good. For the last week it has gotten me to the hospital safety and home again. I am so grateful.
So i sit in this warm hospital room watching the man i have loved for over thirty years fight for all of us.......i find myself heart broken, sometimes I think beyond repair. But then one of you remembers us in away that reminds us God is there using His people to comfort us...and i am at peace...for the moment.
Blessings Dawn
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You are always in my heart and praying for you! Please give "Gar" a hug for me!!
Dawn, I don't know you personally but you're my sister in Christ and my heart cries out to Our Father for such peace that can blanket you and your family. Always know that God is right there with Gary, He is in presence with you even though He may feel far away. He has placed your brothers and sisters in agreement here are earth to unite with you and your family in prayer, thanksgiving and supplication. Your faith is the testimony of so many people who deal with loss of a loved one, God has the master plan, He is good, His ways are good so cling to the truth. Let God's will be done, He has already established the plan for the end of this storm. I pray for complete peace and comfort for Coach as he has to endure this suffering. Tell him the Menne's always think of him in prayer and how his faith is so enduring.
Praying for you often through out my days. Wishing there was something more tangible that I could do from this distance but I know prayer can keep negative thoughts at bay; calm our spirits and give us comfort and peace. Love you guys.
Dear Dear Dawn, The grief you are going through I understand. I am praying for you so earnestly. The words to a song my Dad wrote sometimes comforts me in my grief. but we all have our own journey that way. "I know that I do love Him, I know He is my Friend, this Jesus Lord and Savior, whose truth will never end. To know why you are living, and know that when you die, the Lord will know the answer, He knows the reason why." It seems so odd to be at this point in our lives, we try and make sense of everything, that is our nature. Be honest with your feeling towards the Lord. His love is unchanging, you can scream and His face will always be a steady gaze of love. The only place I have found joy through all the pain is in God's loving presence.
Dear Dawn and Gary, Words escape us to comfort you. All we can do is to let you know you are in our hearts and prayers daily and our small group is praying, too. We love you guys and grieve for the pain you all are going through. Sincerely, Sam & Karla
Thinking of you all often, and praying like crazy.
Oh Dear Dawn, my heart aches for you. Know that my prayers and thoughts are with you.
Praying for this morning before work...love you two. My heart grieves with yours.
No words, just the groaning of my heart in prayer for Gary and you, your family.
Dear Dawn, I know too well there are no words to take away the pain you are feeling. I just hope you feel all the love and prayers being sent. Especialy in the times when you want to yell at God or not even speak to him at all, we are sending prayers on your behalf to our loving, gracious Lord, who's heart is aching with you. You are not alone, we are all grieving with you. Love you!