FROM CAREN

nearly 2 weeks without my primary pain meds due to waiting on approval from autoclaim.....this pain is consuming me....sooooo consuming me......trusting things move smoothly and efficiejtly....waiting on people to do their job and send the records to MaryFreeBed so I can start therapy.....some days are just bleak as night and the only light is hidden up between the trees and I am in a well of pain looking at the light and hoping someone hears my inner screams....and pulls me out...meantime my brain is swimming with puzzle pieces that consume my daily thoughts and my lack of memory and having to repeat myself if frustrating to everyone so I feel isolated within myself sometimes....which probably makes no sense.........but there it is, still the same

I was also brave and spoke with the Officer from the accident scene. I thanked him for being good to my son at the scene and distracting him and being nice to us in the hospital. I also spoke to him openly. He seems trustworthy. I hope my gut feeling is right about that. I hope he does the right thing....

I also spoke with my medical attorney today...that was encouraging and non informative at the same time.

my job is working with me until June, so praying for some answers by then.....I have already passed the 12 week FMLA deal.....so technically they could let me go....but HR told me the local management team advocated to give me an extension....another blessing given to my life.....I don't know what to feel except thanks..........meanwhile I keep being told to reduce my stress.....how can I rrest when there is all this stuff around me that just keeps unfolding..

I am so tired all the time and why does the pain still continue soooooo much....??? Anywhoooooo...

My hope at this point is for people at a certain facility to do their jobs properly so it can continue down the chain to help me get better......I will never give up....it's not in me.......pain or no pain....I have to keep reminding myself that pain means I am alive and that is the focus I must keep......