Saturday, November 07, 2015

The three grand essentials in this life is something to do, something to love, and something to hope for. Well mom, you have always provided us with the essentials and beyond growing up. It has been hard for me to come to this blog in the last week. There has been so much to say. I am writing this post now for something to do to get me over that hump of sadness and trepidation as 4 days after you posted this you would end up on a Ventilator fighting for your life. That brings me to something to love. There is no greater love than the bond of a child to their mother. All my injuries combined pales in comparison to the love I have for you as my mom.....my advocate....my friend. Which brings me to the thing that has sustained me throughout the last 21 months of my recovery journey.....and that is HOPE. It is one thing to say you believe something.....and yet a whole other thing entirely to LIVE IT. BE the change you want to SEE in the world. That is my creed after all. So I will not give up on you - like you never gave up on me. My HOPE is strong enough for the both of us. Please please pull through this. So you can read this. I will also continue to post on here....albeit difficult to think of my pain and anything else but you at this time. I will persevere because you have given me those essentials. I must live what I espouse to believe. This is the only way I survive. This is how you have survived this long and will continue to survive. Your contract is not up....remember? Please be okay mom. I still need you and you still need me. I love you to the moon and back and this is me...... living!