Brain Map Results

Well technically it is the wee hours of Tuesday morning....yet seeing as I have not been to bed or asleep yet, it is still Monday night to me...that being said today (Monday) was a very eventful day. A day of liberation, answers, and a solid direction.

I had a follow up appointment with my Functional Neurologist. I completed Brain Mapping with them about 2 weeks ago and today was the appointment for the results.

I never knew where all my injuries were I just knew that something wasn't right with my head since the wreck. All conventional ways (CT and MRI) were inconclusive and do not document diffuse axonal injuries with traumatic brain injuries. I am washed over with a sense of validation and peace tonight as the results of my Brain Mapping showed I have a MODERATE BRAIN INJURY.

How can this be a sense of peace? It gives me more pieces to the puzzle of my new normal. I am not crazy. I am not imagining these injuries nor am I locked into wondering what is really wrong with me because now I know.....at least a direction to go into.

There is some more testing to be done. There is a treatment plan that is completely not affordable to me and I am hoping that I will be able to acquire what is needed to fix myself, or at least improve my brain healing to a more optimal level. We shall see. The thought of the cost overwhelms me with more than I can emotionally endure.

So tonight I will go to sleep in peace knowing that I now have more concrete answers, not allow myself to think about the financial barriers to treatment, and think about how fascinating the development of our scientific communities are and how truly grateful I continue to be with each new discovery that helps me mend my brokenness.

I will blog as I learn, so hopefully you will not have to endure the same length of time before you are able to get answers for yourself.

Thank you to those who have always believed in me and continue to. Thank you to those providers who have embraced the risk of advocating for me. The value of your time, energy, and bravery cannot be overstated.

Good night my friends, and never ever give up HOPE.