Maybe Tomorrow Will Be Better |12-5-16|

 A 4:30am alarm is a little too early. Especially when you haven't fully gotten to sleep yet. 

We made it to Kc and into the Apheresis clinic by 6:45. They started out by drawing labs to make sure his counts were high enough to even start the stem cell collection. 

We heard them send a couple patients home from other rooms because their counts weren't high enough and I think that's when Mike and I both got concerned that that could be us, too. 

By 8:30 we were on our way back to the car, but not before he got 4 more shots of zarxio to generate more cells. We just didn't have luck today. He has to go back to get another shot tonight to hopefully really get the bone marrow to pump out some cells. 

Then back to the apheresis clinic in the morning to try again! 

If this doesn't work tomorrow, he will get more shots. I don't know how long they'll keep trying, and I don't want to know. Just focusing on better news tomorrow. 

If he isn't able to do a transplant with his own cells, then back to the donor transplant route we go. I really don't want to do that.... but in the grand scheme of things, I don't care what it takes to save my husband's life. He always says, " I don't care what you put me through. I just want to see my children grow up." So that's what the plan is. To make sure he sees our babies grow up. 

Thanks for all of the love from my emotional post last night. Thanks to all of you who are sticking out this rollercoaster ride with me. I know I'm a mess, but you are holding me together. 

Xo

Robin