THIS!!!
The last two weeks have been about letting go.
Agonizing.
There is no way I want to, but like all of us, we must.
Rocco's library is full of old, rare and special books. Giving them away is important. It is what he wanted. Some of them have his sticky notes and scribbles in them. A snapshot in time of where he was or what he was going through. Even a card is found tucked away inside. Students take turns looking through his vast library and pick out what speaks to them.
One envelope surfaced Weds. and was handed to me. On the front of the envelope was simply Rocco and a heart. When I opened the card inside, it was a illustration of a sunset and cloud with a simple sentence that read:
It may be hard to believe just now, but I know...
Then I opened it to read...
You're going to get through this.
It was signed, by me.
I have no idea what was going on at the time I wrote that, but I felt that a card was in order which must have been a tough stretch, because I rarely did that.
I just wish I could remember more, but like so much of the last few weeks, I have to believe that messages even old ones are being delivered and received right on time.
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Love.
Wonderful. I know you wrote it for him, but he has now re-gifted it to you. I can see and hear him saying this to you and Kendall. Much love to you both. See you soon!
This story just demonstrates how completely in the flow the two of you are and have been. Thank you for sharing.
Dearest Denise, I feel your exhausting pain, and understand the agony you are trying to move through. There is no way, easy or hard, to make anything happen to make this painful journey go faster. All of us who knew Rocco (i,perhaps the least of all) are left with knowledge of a person who transformed lives. How do you measure that? How do you balance his absence with what is here now? You have had a period of time which can be defined by your mutual love, your family..,that is yours forever. It can never be replaced. This takes time to comprehend, and because of your fantastic, positive nature, the reality will not be easy to accept. Right now, there are still jobs to be done. I send you all of my strength to see you through. Love, Donna. I am sad to be in NY in rehearsals, during Rocco's memorial. It was planned weeks before the announcement.
Denise, I am so blown away by your grace and kindness and love. You will get through this, I’m sure. Whenever it happens. But never forget that you are a light in this world, too, exactly like Rocco. Dim when you need to protect yourself, you’ll shine on us all no matter what. Sherman
When we texted each other today, I almost wrote "I hope that Rocco finds a way to communicate to you from beyond" I'm so happy that he has, through your own writing, no less. It doesn't get more intimate than that. XO
What a masterful communicator he is in all ways. What a wonderful gift to receive at a time that is perfect. Thank you for sharing this.
Just Wow
That is just beautiful.
He’ll never be far away ❤️
Amen to that.
Much love to you. You are obviously not done yet. I don't think Rocco was, either, but... Such are the great mysteries. Of which I cannot pretend to know anything.
What a blessed message from your beloved. I love you, Denise. I love you. I can hear him whispering to you right this moment. I love you. I love you. I love you.
So beautiful, such a wonderful message 🌅
No accidents. No mistakes. May love and more love always carry you and raise you up when you need it most.
This gave me chills when I read it. I can only imagine how it was for you. He is sending so much love. This was wonderful to read. With love, Marilyn Caskey
When I can't remember events clearly or suspect I'm even overlooking events, I remember feelings about someone special, someone I loved and still love. I like remembering those good feelings. They are so nice to bring back.
Such a beautiful message. Thanks for sharing it.
Denise, I can't come up with more creative than have been said already. Wow. A sweet message from you, and from Rocco. You amaze me with your love and compassion and strength. Love you heaps.
Dear Denise, just reading this post tonight on the eve before your collective celebration of Rocco. What a beautiful card you gave him some time ago and how quintessentially perfectly the message returned to you at precisely the moment. You two continue to express your love and work your magic beyond the earthly concrete sphere. Hugs and love. We'll be with you tomorrow evening thanks to your live streaming.