From Caren, 05/14

Rev. Dick Ammons told me Sunday that I am not the wreck and not to "own" the wreck as my own. That the van was wrecked and I was just a bystander in the event. The van was wrecked and totaled. I am not - I am repairable. 

Oh yeah, I went to Church Sunday for the first time in a long while because I heard he was speaking and I wanted to see if I could survive the outing. That and it was Mother's Day and I wanted that time with my mom. We didn't even take any kids.

I told him I don't remember the wreck, but feel completely wrecked as I stuttered across my thoughts and tried to think of how to speak what I was thinking.

He is a matter of fact guy who I love and respect a LOT. I heard him and his analogy and I am still processing that line of thinking. It's a deep concept for me and doesn't make sense and makes sense at the same time.