From Caren

The common theme at the TBI support group meeting is that they lost all their friends and some people even lost their family because of changes that have happened to them since thier injuries. 

I would be lying if I said I didn't see this already happening with us. I feel sad about it. I hate it so much.....but hate attracts such negative energy, so I try to HOPE every day that we will keep our friends...maybe even make new ones......that we won't be forgotten and that my family and Rick's family won't tire of what we will have to contniue to deal with daily without their help.

The common theme was also judgement from others becasue we look "normal". I am the same me, but in some ways better, and other ways just diffDifferent in ways I cannot put itno words because the words are puzzle pieces hidden under other puzzle pieces, and some people don't have time to wait for those pieces to get sorted out.

I feel sadness and depression for their losses and mourn the possibility of what will happen to us.....to me....what is happening.

My husband and mom and daughter said I had all these people visiting me at the hospital when I first went in. I remember none of those visits of who they have said. I remember some things, but most of those first few weeks I have no memory at all - or snapshot memories that drift in and out. I remember a lot of rehab especially with my notes I took. Some things I donn't foget....why does my brain work that way???

Since being home........are we already fogotten? *sighs*