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Posted 2020-03-18T22:06:00Z

Fighting terminal cancer in the age of SARS-CoV-2

The entire world has just involuntarily adopted my lifestyle of quarantining at home, worrying about germs and wondering if we will be alive in 2 months.  It is amazing how a virus, a little strand of RNA that is not even technically alive, brought the world to its knees.  The threat of SARS-CoV2 has shifted everything.  I was hoping that right after writing this blog post I would be booking trips.  Bruce took spring quarter at 50%time, we planned to visit Italy and take a biking trip in Seattle.  Boy do I know how to pick a vacation spot!  And of course, Oxford, to lobby the related research groups on Cannabinoid Oncology.  Now, for what is likely my last remission, I will be stuck at home.  Don't get me wrong, I have a beautiful house and garden, which I so grateful for.  But I have been on soft quarantine during most of last year during chemo.  And now, just as my immunity is recovering the entire planted is on lockdown for longer than anyone wants to admit.   It is not how I wanted to spend my year.  [...]

Posted 2020-03-10T00:54:00Z

Be bold, work hard and change the world. Right after you and wash your hands

March 3rd was my fourth "rebirthday."  It's been four years since I was filleted.  Four years of living in a body at war with itself. Four years where chemo cycles, white blood cell counts, and the spectre of Porlock have ruled our lives.  I can hardly remember life before cancer, which makes me sad.  I was hoping to celebrate this 4th anniversary with good news but instead I'm feeling so discouraged.  The United Nations Council on Narcotics Drugs met in Vienna last week.  I was delusionally hopeful they would take last year’s WHO recommendation and vote to deschedule Cannabis.  Some member states — Russian, China, Iran, Japan, among others —were not willing to hold the vote. Here is a summary of the UN meeting and what it means.  A delayed "YES" vote is better than a rushed "NO" vote, but this is time I do not have.  I am frustrated and stressed out.  It was a revelation that international treaties could prohibit the US from descheduling Cannabis.  Not only does the US Federal Government have to loosen restrictions but basically the entire world has to agree?  I find this staggeringly depressing.  I really don't have the words to express how sad and angry this makes me.  Why should my health care depend on what Russia thinks?  I am doomed.  Bernie keeps saying he will legalize on day one of his presidency, but that path to legalization is complicated.  If Trump can pull the US out of Paris Climate agreements, could Bernie pull us out of the UN drug convention?  I have not looked into that, but I should.       [...]