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Posted 2016-02-26T02:17:00Z

Silence

During my battle I have made a conscious effort to determine my weaknesses and steer clear of them. The goal has been to focus on what assists me with the fight and not judge myself - just to go with it. Through this process I can say without a doubt silence fucking sucks and is crippling. Sitting alone on the subway, in the back of a taxi, on an airplane alone, in the shower, and in bed, my mind goes directly to the worst things possible. Why me? Did I do something extremely awful in my past life? How much can one person handle? I have fucking cancer! I cannot do this anymore. I just want a break. When is the nightmare going to end? Why am I such a weak person. Pull it together! Why cannot I give more to my friends, family and company? Stop crying in public! How much more can I ask of my selfless husband? Please don't let him leave me. Your kids deserve a strong brave mom.[...]

Posted 2016-02-25T20:20:00Z

This is the Very Moment I Need to Post - Why?

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Hmmm . . . when do I post a journal entry and when do I not?  These are  the types of things that continuously flow through the mind of BLG.  Then all of a sudden it's clear to me while I am working on organizing the questions for a Cyber Panel I am moderating on Monday - I post when it helps me!!!  So here I am completely behind on my panel and all these intelligent, amazing panel participants are waiting for my questions for Monday, I need to post on this blog now.[...]

Posted 2016-02-21T13:06:00Z

Coming Out

Today feels like the right day to come out.  To share with the world wide web that I have breast cancer.  Why today, I don't know, but I do know there have been these moments where I have been clearly ready to share my story, with a friend, family member, employer, coworker, etc.  I just go with my heart and my instinct.[...]