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Posted 2016-07-29T17:47:53Z

Am I Dreaming?!

Is it possible to be lost for words?  Is it common to feel like you are in a dream?  Is it typical to second guess?  These things and so many more are running through my head. It's crazy but it's like the polar opposite when I was first diagnosed with cancer. It took me weeks, maybe even months before I could say out loud "I have cancer".  Now I sit next to Greg on our drive home having the most difficult time reaching out to anyone or just writing this journal entry. Well, I got to at least write it . . . Right?  Okay, here it goes . . . I am in complete remission!  I am fucking cancer free today!  I got shit done and kicked cancer's ass!  Cancer 0 - BLG 1!  There is no more poison in Mommy's body![...]

Posted 2016-07-27T14:39:32Z

My Genes are Clean!!

Yeah, received my gene panel results, and of the 21 genes tested they all came back negative!  Woot woot!  So this mans I am not at greater risk to get any of the cancers they tested for.  This also means that my go forward treatment will not change at this point.  This is very very good news.  Now we just wait for my pathology results which I get on the 29th.  Fingers crossed this journey is nearing the end.[...]

Posted 2016-07-22T23:26:00Z

All Clear to Shower!

Great news everyone!!!  My in home nurse came today, looked at my drain spots, and provided me the all clear to shower!!!  Woot woot! (Insert sarcasm). Oh, and my surgical oncologist called and my pathology report will not be available until July 29th instead of 25th.  So small change to my appointment.  Okay . . . that's all I got . . . no more to talk about my health or any doctors appointments.  That's it. But for some reason I feel I have more to say.  Well you can thank my company for this as I have been on STD and completely cut out; I am overdosed on US politics; and you can only watch so much sports and play so much candy crush. Well, I guess cancer is part of this post because without cancer there would not be all this free time for me to think and clarify some important life items for me.[...]

Posted 2016-07-20T00:08:51Z

So long boobies . . .

My bilateral mastectomy was a success on July 13th.  Both breasts removed, one night in the hospital, and home since to heal. Today my drains were removed, and fingers crossed I get to shower on Friday.  Typical healing time takes 4 to 8 weeks.  I have my surgical oncologist appointment on July 25th, and we are hoping for pathology reports to be completed by then.  July 26th I will then do the gene testing results.  By the end of July 26th I should know if I conquered cancer or have a bit longer to go.  Either way, I know I am stronger than this disease, and I will beat it![...]

Posted 2016-07-12T17:13:00Z

WOW - 30,000 reinforcements (visits to my posthope.org page) is why I share my journey!

Wow, I cannot believe I have had over 30,000 visits to my posthope.org page.  That is just amazing.  Thank you so much for reading and supporting me through my cancer journey.  It means the world to me.  Wow . . . that just blows my mind.  My heart feels so full, especially as I get prepared for my second surgery tomorrow - the big one.[...]

Posted 2016-07-02T18:51:00Z

What?! You mean chemo wasn't complete on June 16th - my last chemo treatment?!

So for some reason I assumed when Michael, my chemo nurse Superman, pumped the last bit of my chemo cocktail in my system on June 16th, I would feel feel like a rockstar in a couple days.  NOPE!  I have felt absolutely awful - actually this is the worst I have felt on chemo.  I have neuropathy in my feet, my muscles and joints are sore and tight, and the pinball nerve pain continues to hit me in every part of my body.  Oh yeah, let's throw in a bit of vomiting and some sort of sinus infection I caught from my lil angel Abbey due to my low immune system.  Oh, it's been a treat.  I can barely walk and I have spent most of my days on the couch with a bit of complaining like a big baby.  My poor hubby - he has had to put up with all this and take care of the kids, pets and house (like he has done since November).[...]